I just received 2 packs of blood .. Group A rh (+)ve .. For the second time .. The first time I received packs of blood was 7 years ago .. Anemic, main cause is bleeding .. 3 days 2 nights, feel like "hospital, smells death" .. And I hate it ..
I don't like when the blood and the medicine were coming into my body .. It's pain .. It's remind me how the vampire really needs blood, I'm sure they are sick too - wth .. Just blood .. I don't know how it feel when hemoglobin was 7.1 .. The only word that I can describe is, It's Terrible! I feel death, sure I'm alive but it's really really different ..
I'm still not so ok .. but can survive .. Still bleeding actually .. Hope everything will be alright later ..
Sorry mama, make you so worried .. Sorry family .. And thanks for the caring ..
Thanks Lavender who always stay by my side at this very moment .. ilyimy ..
Thanks GOD for a live .. I'm here again by your mercy ..
msg ~ for sure, I'm not vampire ..
Friday, December 18, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I waLked iN the RAIN !
I was crying when I walked in the rain last night .. Feel frustrated and down .. And I don't know what to do .. And got fever today .. I love to walk in the rain when I feel down and uncool .. Not only that, I love to take shower while feel upset .. Go to the swimming pool when feel bored .. And go to the sea when I feel blue .. I love water so much .. cuz, when I in the water, nobody knows I'm crying ..
Listen to the Kelly Clarkson's song - Already Gone .. 'When we take this road, someone have to go' .. I know that you'll never let me go but honestly, I need to go .. She's fully yours .. I'm nothing ..
I love you enough to let you go .. The only sacrifice that I can do for you ..
Yes, when I talked to you thru hp last night, I was crying .. Pretending I got flu, but yet, you heard the song .. Yes, I'm NOT OK! I don't want to lost you .. Badly won't it .. But we're know it .. I'm the right person have to go ..
What is the good path for me now? Can someone show me?
God, what my reason? What my purpose?
msg ~ if u read this, I just want you to know .. I miss you so much ..
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Listen to the Kelly Clarkson's song - Already Gone .. 'When we take this road, someone have to go' .. I know that you'll never let me go but honestly, I need to go .. She's fully yours .. I'm nothing ..
I love you enough to let you go .. The only sacrifice that I can do for you ..
Yes, when I talked to you thru hp last night, I was crying .. Pretending I got flu, but yet, you heard the song .. Yes, I'm NOT OK! I don't want to lost you .. Badly won't it .. But we're know it .. I'm the right person have to go ..
What is the good path for me now? Can someone show me?
God, what my reason? What my purpose?
msg ~ if u read this, I just want you to know .. I miss you so much ..
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Who is my neighbour?
I hate gossip !
I don't know why I really don't like it since my high school moment .. I hate when pupils start to talked about bad things .. Huh! It's annoying .. I don't like it ..
And now, some of my "friends" .. Start to talked something bad 'bout me ! What the hell is going on??! Gossiping!! Are they don't have other works to do than this? Why they are so busy with my life? Why they wanna bring me down? OMG! I hate this feeling ..
They totally have no idea about me .. It's not easy being IVY ! It's not easy standing in my shoe .. It's not easy when you're keep talking about me? They know nothing about me ! OIC, they are perfect ! And I know, I'M IMPERFECT .. wtf!
It's make me think twice .. Who's my friends? Who's my neighbour? Who's into me? Where are them?
.... LAVENDER .. if you read this post .. pls stand by me these very moments .. I need you to hold on .. So I can stand firm and smile again ..
msg ~ I don't hate them .. I just hate gossip !
I don't know why I really don't like it since my high school moment .. I hate when pupils start to talked about bad things .. Huh! It's annoying .. I don't like it ..
And now, some of my "friends" .. Start to talked something bad 'bout me ! What the hell is going on??! Gossiping!! Are they don't have other works to do than this? Why they are so busy with my life? Why they wanna bring me down? OMG! I hate this feeling ..
They totally have no idea about me .. It's not easy being IVY ! It's not easy standing in my shoe .. It's not easy when you're keep talking about me? They know nothing about me ! OIC, they are perfect ! And I know, I'M IMPERFECT .. wtf!
It's make me think twice .. Who's my friends? Who's my neighbour? Who's into me? Where are them?
.... LAVENDER .. if you read this post .. pls stand by me these very moments .. I need you to hold on .. So I can stand firm and smile again ..
msg ~ I don't hate them .. I just hate gossip !
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
DriftZone ..
I really have no idea why recently I just talked about car, driving, drifter, speed and something like that ..
I don't know how to drive a car .. I had tried it before, and yeah .. a bit bad I thought .. n I dun know if I can be the best drifter .. haha ... or at least a good driver .. we'll see .. But for sure, I love speed .. My lovely dad and my lovely brother are a good high speed driver ! I just love it ..
I like Rihanna's song ~ Shut Up and Drive >> Baby you got the key, now shut up and drive !
Avril Lavigne ~ Hot >> I wanna drive you into the corner n kiss you without a sound !
Yay .. why? My Yukiteru also a good drifter I thought ! Betul kaito Yuki?
But but but .. this one is real .. I like the way LAVENDER drives in his car .. It's cool !
Also in my FB .. Talk 'bout drifter and driver ! OMG.. I'm not the best drifter, not even a good driver .. But I keep talking about it .. Heck what !
Haha .. I want the best-ever drifter ...Cuz I'm the fined-tune supersonic speed machine !
Msg~ Annoying post!! teda 2x buhh ..
I don't know how to drive a car .. I had tried it before, and yeah .. a bit bad I thought .. n I dun know if I can be the best drifter .. haha ... or at least a good driver .. we'll see .. But for sure, I love speed .. My lovely dad and my lovely brother are a good high speed driver ! I just love it ..
I like Rihanna's song ~ Shut Up and Drive >> Baby you got the key, now shut up and drive !
Avril Lavigne ~ Hot >> I wanna drive you into the corner n kiss you without a sound !
Yay .. why? My Yukiteru also a good drifter I thought ! Betul kaito Yuki?
But but but .. this one is real .. I like the way LAVENDER drives in his car .. It's cool !
Also in my FB .. Talk 'bout drifter and driver ! OMG.. I'm not the best drifter, not even a good driver .. But I keep talking about it .. Heck what !
Haha .. I want the best-ever drifter ...Cuz I'm the fined-tune supersonic speed machine !
Msg~ Annoying post!! teda 2x buhh ..
Sunday, October 18, 2009
AMANO Lover ;)
If I say 'I LOVE YOU' without my sacrifice ..
Don't TRUST me ..
B'cuz when I Love you ..
I will do my SACRIFICE ..
Without saying any words ..
And please , Trust me this time ..
Don't TRUST me ..
B'cuz when I Love you ..
I will do my SACRIFICE ..
Without saying any words ..
And please , Trust me this time ..
Sunday, October 11, 2009
.. Teman Sepermainan ..
I wonder how they were now .. Enjoying their life? Struggling their life? Living their life? Hating their life? I just wonder b'cuz I really miss them now .. Most of them I knew from Tawau, ( b'cuz was growing my childhood moment there), so I decided to write my post in Malay .. I speak well in Malay ;) haha .. Wish I'll not add any English word in my post after my introduce lines.
Teman sepermainan ;)
Saya suka tajuk saya kali ini .. Bahasa Melayu .. oh yah, mesti pembaca blog saya tengah bingung, kenapa mesti Bahasa Melayu atau Bahasa Malaysia, owh sepatutnya saya tulis Bahasa Malaysia untuk menyokong gagasan 1 Malaysia .. Alasan saya mudah saja, sebab di Tawau-lah saya belajar Bahasa Malaysia dengan baik sehingga langsung tiada longhat Dusun dalam pertuturan harian saya ;) .. Dan, rakan sepermainan saya adalah antara penutur Bahasa Malaysia yang baik ;) ..
Masa kecil saya cuma berlangsung sekali saja sepanjang hidup saya, dan kamu juga .. haha .. Erm, saya tidak lahir di Tawau, saya cuma membesar di sana .. Tahun 1991, ayah saya telah ditugaskan di sana, di kawasan bernama Merotai Besar .. Ramai kawan saya, tapi cuma kawan terbaik akan hinggap di hati kita untuk selamanya, adakah anda setuju dengan saya? ;) .. Selain Tulip saya, tidak kenal? klik -> TULIP .. Saya ada dua kawan baik yang masih berkawan baik dengan saya sekarang, dan itu tidak akan berakhir .. Yang pertama, Priscika Bujet atau Cyka, dan yang kedua, Edwin Jr Edward atau Jay .. Nak tahu fakta? ok, Saya beri tahu..
1. Kami tidak sama umur (CyKa 1986, Ivy 1987, Jay 1989)
2. Kami tidak bersekolah di sekolah yang sama (Cyka Tawau, Ivy Merotai, Jay Dumpas)
3. Perangai dan pesonaliti kami berbeza (Cyka Tomboy, Ivy Becok, Jay Manja)
4. Kami anak terakhir pada masa itu
5. Kami hidup berjiran
6. Kami selalu tengok dragon ball setiap hari ahad
7. Kami selalu mandi sungai
8. Kami suka panjat pokok belakang rumah
9. Kami suka main masak-masak.
10.Kami selalu kena marah ;)
Dan saya sangat merindui masa itu .. Ya, kami masih berhubung sesama kami, Jay ada di Facebook saya .. Cyka? Ya, kami masuk kolej yang sama .. Saya sangat suka, sebab kami tak pernah satu sekolah sebelum ini ..
Sebenarnya bukan Tulip, Cyka dan Jay saja teman sepermainan saya .. Saya ada Angela, Tracy, Hilda, Dessy, Boy, Joy, Popoye, Kiki, Bob, Tiu, Met, Lisa, Morry, Melvis, Dany, Aaron, Alice, Stephanie, Azwan Azwin, Faezah, Ani, Mirah, Mazuin, Yati, Ana, Firdaus, Ain .. Ya! Saya nak Cerita pasal Ain ..
Ain ~ Nama sebenar dia, Syazrinie Mohd Syah .. Lebih mesra dengan panggilan Ain .. Saya kenal dia di sekolah, S.K Merotai Besar dalam kelas 1B .. Semasa saya masuk kelas tu, saya hanya sendiri, tiada kawan sekampung .. Dan yah, dia orang pertama yang tegur saya, nak tau apa dia cakap? .. Hihi .. ''ermm, bekal kau ada dalam beg" .. haha .. Tidak lama lepas tu, kami berkawan .. Kawan rapat saya maksudkan .. Bermain di rumah dia, bermanja dengan ibu dia, bermesra dengan adik-beradik dia ..
Tahun 2, kami dipindahkan kelas ke kelas 2A .. Kelas pandailah konon .. Saya kena akui, Ain seorang yang pandai dan sangat dipercayai oleh cikgu .. Saya cemburu .. Ain, kamu perlu tahu ini .. Tapi jujur, saya tidak pernah rasa benci dengan dia .. Malah itu menberi buat saya semangat untuk terus belajar dengan gigih ..
Tahun 3, tahun yang boleh dikatakan mencabar untuk kami sebab tahun tersebut kami kena mengambil PTS atau Penilaian Tahap Satu .. Dimana pelajar yang lulus akan dilangkaukan kelas ke tahun 5 tanpa perlu mengambil tahun 4 .. Tahun itu juga saya bercita-cita menjadi seorang doktor .. Kami menduduki PTS dan berdebar menunggu keputusannya .. Bila TV3, belum ada Astro masa itu , mengumunkan bahawa keputusan PTS boleh diambil sekian sekian, saya sangat semangat .. Tapi saya tak pun pergi ke Pejabat Pendidikan Tawau untuk mengambil keputusan PTS saya .. Saya sangat pasti ini, AIN ADALAH ORANG PERTAMA yang memberi tahu saya bahawa saya lulus PTS! Saya gembira tapi juga sedih, Ain tak lulus .. Dalam erti kata lain, cuma saya seorang saja yang langkau kelas .. Dan cuma saya seorang saja yang lulus di sekolah kami, dan juga di seluruh bahagian sekolah Merotai sehingga daerah Kalabakan .. Yah, masa itu saya sangat temberang .. Cerita kanak-kanak ..
Semasa saya tahun 5, Ain telah berpindah ke sekolah lain .. dan kami tak sempat nak ucap selamat tinggal sesama kami .. Jujur, kami tidak pernah berhubung sehingga satu hari dia hubungi saya melalui Friendster.com .. Terima kasih untuk Fs.com .. Dan kami mula berhubung kembali .. Dan yang paling saya suka, AIN adalah penggemar blog ;) .. Kamu boleh lawat blog dia, Ain maafkan saya promosi blog kamu, klik -> Ain Blog 1 dan Ain Blog 2 .. Dia sama seperti kawan saya Fina, masih ingat? klik -> Fine Fina .. Eya, Ain penuh dengan kata-kata dan sangat bijak bermain kata, macam Fina .. Saya sangat gemar membaca blog dia, saya akan beremosi dengan setiap cerita, luahan hati, dan sajak .. Saya orang seni, dan sangat meminati sajak .. Kamu boleh tanya rakan sekolah saya .. Ya, saya akui saya jiwang, dan jiwang itu seni .. Ia mengalir dalam darah saya dan berhembus dalam nafas saya ;) .. Wahh, Itu Ivy!
Teman Sepermainan saya mungkin tidak sehebat teman sepermainan kamu, tapi merekalah yang saya miliki sepanjang hidup saya .. Merekalah yang mewarnai cerita kisah kanak-kanak saya dulu .. Dan itu, cuma cerita saya .. Tiada cetak rompak .. Sajak pendek ini saya khas buat TEMAN SEPERMAINAN saya ..
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Teman sepermainan ;)
Saya suka tajuk saya kali ini .. Bahasa Melayu .. oh yah, mesti pembaca blog saya tengah bingung, kenapa mesti Bahasa Melayu atau Bahasa Malaysia, owh sepatutnya saya tulis Bahasa Malaysia untuk menyokong gagasan 1 Malaysia .. Alasan saya mudah saja, sebab di Tawau-lah saya belajar Bahasa Malaysia dengan baik sehingga langsung tiada longhat Dusun dalam pertuturan harian saya ;) .. Dan, rakan sepermainan saya adalah antara penutur Bahasa Malaysia yang baik ;) ..
Masa kecil saya cuma berlangsung sekali saja sepanjang hidup saya, dan kamu juga .. haha .. Erm, saya tidak lahir di Tawau, saya cuma membesar di sana .. Tahun 1991, ayah saya telah ditugaskan di sana, di kawasan bernama Merotai Besar .. Ramai kawan saya, tapi cuma kawan terbaik akan hinggap di hati kita untuk selamanya, adakah anda setuju dengan saya? ;) .. Selain Tulip saya, tidak kenal? klik -> TULIP .. Saya ada dua kawan baik yang masih berkawan baik dengan saya sekarang, dan itu tidak akan berakhir .. Yang pertama, Priscika Bujet atau Cyka, dan yang kedua, Edwin Jr Edward atau Jay .. Nak tahu fakta? ok, Saya beri tahu..
1. Kami tidak sama umur (CyKa 1986, Ivy 1987, Jay 1989)
2. Kami tidak bersekolah di sekolah yang sama (Cyka Tawau, Ivy Merotai, Jay Dumpas)
3. Perangai dan pesonaliti kami berbeza (Cyka Tomboy, Ivy Becok, Jay Manja)
4. Kami anak terakhir pada masa itu
5. Kami hidup berjiran
6. Kami selalu tengok dragon ball setiap hari ahad
7. Kami selalu mandi sungai
8. Kami suka panjat pokok belakang rumah
9. Kami suka main masak-masak.
10.Kami selalu kena marah ;)
Dan saya sangat merindui masa itu .. Ya, kami masih berhubung sesama kami, Jay ada di Facebook saya .. Cyka? Ya, kami masuk kolej yang sama .. Saya sangat suka, sebab kami tak pernah satu sekolah sebelum ini ..
Sebenarnya bukan Tulip, Cyka dan Jay saja teman sepermainan saya .. Saya ada Angela, Tracy, Hilda, Dessy, Boy, Joy, Popoye, Kiki, Bob, Tiu, Met, Lisa, Morry, Melvis, Dany, Aaron, Alice, Stephanie, Azwan Azwin, Faezah, Ani, Mirah, Mazuin, Yati, Ana, Firdaus, Ain .. Ya! Saya nak Cerita pasal Ain ..
Ain ~ Nama sebenar dia, Syazrinie Mohd Syah .. Lebih mesra dengan panggilan Ain .. Saya kenal dia di sekolah, S.K Merotai Besar dalam kelas 1B .. Semasa saya masuk kelas tu, saya hanya sendiri, tiada kawan sekampung .. Dan yah, dia orang pertama yang tegur saya, nak tau apa dia cakap? .. Hihi .. ''ermm, bekal kau ada dalam beg" .. haha .. Tidak lama lepas tu, kami berkawan .. Kawan rapat saya maksudkan .. Bermain di rumah dia, bermanja dengan ibu dia, bermesra dengan adik-beradik dia ..
Tahun 2, kami dipindahkan kelas ke kelas 2A .. Kelas pandailah konon .. Saya kena akui, Ain seorang yang pandai dan sangat dipercayai oleh cikgu .. Saya cemburu .. Ain, kamu perlu tahu ini .. Tapi jujur, saya tidak pernah rasa benci dengan dia .. Malah itu menberi buat saya semangat untuk terus belajar dengan gigih ..
Tahun 3, tahun yang boleh dikatakan mencabar untuk kami sebab tahun tersebut kami kena mengambil PTS atau Penilaian Tahap Satu .. Dimana pelajar yang lulus akan dilangkaukan kelas ke tahun 5 tanpa perlu mengambil tahun 4 .. Tahun itu juga saya bercita-cita menjadi seorang doktor .. Kami menduduki PTS dan berdebar menunggu keputusannya .. Bila TV3, belum ada Astro masa itu , mengumunkan bahawa keputusan PTS boleh diambil sekian sekian, saya sangat semangat .. Tapi saya tak pun pergi ke Pejabat Pendidikan Tawau untuk mengambil keputusan PTS saya .. Saya sangat pasti ini, AIN ADALAH ORANG PERTAMA yang memberi tahu saya bahawa saya lulus PTS! Saya gembira tapi juga sedih, Ain tak lulus .. Dalam erti kata lain, cuma saya seorang saja yang langkau kelas .. Dan cuma saya seorang saja yang lulus di sekolah kami, dan juga di seluruh bahagian sekolah Merotai sehingga daerah Kalabakan .. Yah, masa itu saya sangat temberang .. Cerita kanak-kanak ..
Semasa saya tahun 5, Ain telah berpindah ke sekolah lain .. dan kami tak sempat nak ucap selamat tinggal sesama kami .. Jujur, kami tidak pernah berhubung sehingga satu hari dia hubungi saya melalui Friendster.com .. Terima kasih untuk Fs.com .. Dan kami mula berhubung kembali .. Dan yang paling saya suka, AIN adalah penggemar blog ;) .. Kamu boleh lawat blog dia, Ain maafkan saya promosi blog kamu, klik -> Ain Blog 1 dan Ain Blog 2 .. Dia sama seperti kawan saya Fina, masih ingat? klik -> Fine Fina .. Eya, Ain penuh dengan kata-kata dan sangat bijak bermain kata, macam Fina .. Saya sangat gemar membaca blog dia, saya akan beremosi dengan setiap cerita, luahan hati, dan sajak .. Saya orang seni, dan sangat meminati sajak .. Kamu boleh tanya rakan sekolah saya .. Ya, saya akui saya jiwang, dan jiwang itu seni .. Ia mengalir dalam darah saya dan berhembus dalam nafas saya ;) .. Wahh, Itu Ivy!
Teman Sepermainan saya mungkin tidak sehebat teman sepermainan kamu, tapi merekalah yang saya miliki sepanjang hidup saya .. Merekalah yang mewarnai cerita kisah kanak-kanak saya dulu .. Dan itu, cuma cerita saya .. Tiada cetak rompak .. Sajak pendek ini saya khas buat TEMAN SEPERMAINAN saya ..
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Kau comot, tapi comel ..
kau jahat, tapi baik ..
kau? si pembohong, tapi juga si jujur yang lurus..
Kita berlari, kita bermain, kita belajar..
kita menangis, kita bergaduh, kita ketawa..
cerita kita cuma milik kita..
detik si cilik kita eya, hanya empunya kita..
milik kita abadi..
hanya perlu secubit ruang,
sebagai tempat untuk memori ini mekar selalu..
Teman Sepermainan ku,
kamu adalah kisah klasik untuk masa depan ku..
kamu, eya kamu sentiasa ada di hati kecil ku.
kau jahat, tapi baik ..
kau? si pembohong, tapi juga si jujur yang lurus..
Kita berlari, kita bermain, kita belajar..
kita menangis, kita bergaduh, kita ketawa..
cerita kita cuma milik kita..
detik si cilik kita eya, hanya empunya kita..
milik kita abadi..
hanya perlu secubit ruang,
sebagai tempat untuk memori ini mekar selalu..
Teman Sepermainan ku,
kamu adalah kisah klasik untuk masa depan ku..
kamu, eya kamu sentiasa ada di hati kecil ku.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
365 Days Birthdays ;)
This is one of my interest ! Birthdays .. And the most excited one is, all names in this post are the peoples around me in my reality life .. Guys, lebiu so much !! Will update this post until I reach my goal ;) ..
January
1st Fiona Fionz Chang + Luyoh + Sherlynie Rusain
3rd Mrs Mama Manic Ming
5th Mimie Kong Siaw Wah + Herman Sanny
7th Suziana Martinus + Caroline Apau
10th Ivy Josmin + Abah Larmin + Rolinus Paulous
11st Sherlin Lampakas + Alice Arminah Aik
13rd Kunismaina Ramli
14th Bilnis Jeprin + Sabrina
15th Walter Milter + Christina Lams
17th Jeanessa Vera Jusing
19th Dominick Menggin Andom
20th Renosa + Rowena Tulop
21st Salinah Kablen
24th Dino Dinz Albert
25th Rojie Songkia
26th Edwyn Edward
27th Ricky John
28th Martin Ahtin Yapp + Dunstan Lamansing
29th Jennifer Lee
31th Ross Aaron Poul + Mourice Louis
February
2nd Helson Benedict
3rd Ivy Lovia James + Jumatiah + Jumariah + Evans + Hilda + Thompson + Luis
4th Rafikah
5th Sheilla Liew + Raislee JoJo Joseph + Sisel Duramin
6th Josie James
7th Jennifer Jane Subing
8th Melinda Louis
9th Sherene Yee
10th Newmond Gimon Guansing + Gregory
11st Ann Gwenivere + Melton Martin
12nd Leonard James
13rd Czer Koh
14th Mas Hamimah
15th Farazilla Abbas
16th Eddly Mastan
17th Runine Ednie
18th Jacqueline Elsa Taraan
19th Remmy Emiey Ejai
20th Adirman Salim
21st Justina Matius + Timothy Sng
22nd Nickson Mathew
23rd Atliana Atun Atee
24th Nurfatimah Ibrahim
26th Rupina Guri
27th Norhayati Juwa
28th Imelda Albert
29th Awonventure Amaja
March
1st Lidis Singkung
3rd Jay Junior + Daniel Richard
4th Fahmi + Emiliana Ali
5th Natalie Ng + Siew Lin
6th Jasnikah Jeppy
8th Franklin Lim
10th Robert James + Salinah Kablen13rd Simon Donny
15th Lydrizza Wa-y Koh
16th Indo Sharifah Efy
17th Rindy Nabin + Wijinia Reyes
19th Rachel Lin
23rd Jessbent
24th Melbert Martin + Sheilymelly Rusain25th Fizafrian Obie
27th Beatrice Bernadette Boli
28th Edel Arninah Aik + Fresscilla Richard
April
1st Azlina Abdul Pusing
2nd Peter Haryson + Peter Anderson Nianti + Aunty Tina
5th Ruth Rainih Ationg
8th Aaron Ross Ationg + Jeremiah James Presley + Carolina Jeffrey
10th Dolly Manjuil13rd Melnah Martin
20th Jecky Ray
23rd Joyce Tulip James
25th Erwana Jeffred + Winston
26th Jonathan Tse
May
3rd Satria Kamaruddin
4th Alexander Jeffrey
8th Oliver Tse + Michelle Lo10th Rosnah Rose
11st Rommie Yusuf
13rd Yoktan Julbit + May Kunau
14th Edwinsor + Edwinson Edward
16th Claudya Quenzie Oiyoe
17th Mustieca Joseph + Myerie Rachel + Nuran Neng
18th Jennifer Robert Suimin
22nd Siti Nurul Hidayah Daud28th Mr Papa James Ming
29th Veronica Justin
30th Christy Benedict + Masmika Joseph
31st Rita Insik
June
3rd Blericia Bibiey Kamrin
4th Helwin Mobile
6th Azmi Kolis
10th Marthen Jiling Kuntong11st Norlina Nana
12nd Nani Amanda
15th Haroldson Aaron Benedict + Shilla Soh
18th Jimrus Ruslee
26th Albert Lintikan + Alexzender Lex J
29th Wadi Rinantai
30th Adrus Philip
July
1st Mimie Dusain
8th Debbie Koh9th Helen James Ming + Natanael Robin + Imelda Dingle
10th Adlina Lisa Ugak
11st Egnitius Edwifar Edward
13rd Ain Syazrinie Mohd Shah
15th Azuwel Yedija Nadzir + Hexson + Marline Ho
17th Jumat
18th Eisdha Sairin
20th Eldarincia Kamrin
21st Joy Nadzir
22nd Suzita Likin
25th James Lee Thien Siong + Julian Lee
28th Handry Welen
29th Angela Ujih
30th Tey Lee Yin
31st Belvander Jeffrey
August
1st Caroline Edwin
3rd Amber Henrietta Emie + Magdelina Tuyok + Enfee Liew
4th Gabriel Boy Walter
5th Doulos Aryond Saikong7th Dorina Dusain
8th Sanisah Kablen
9th Brenda Valerie Adrianus
11st Tsen Nyuk Fun(AhFun)
13rd Jacqueline Ugak + Nurifah Pingging
18th Brian Chin + DeyLa + Brenda Eicka
21st Angeline Kuan + Welen Handry
23rd Malne Johan + Livyria Evy J24th Dhartecularizea Robert
27th Presley James Ming + Malisa M.Nasir
28th Siti Wardah Shazriana Daud
29th Selwyn Awin Sho
31st Kenin Loong
September
1st Carol Sumail + Jason James + Morry Ganyon
2nd Jasmek Hanid
4th Melvis Martin
9th Wallcon Walter
11st Lee Seul
13rd Jacqueline Ugak
16th Celoran
18th Eustorayanne Rynie Micheal + Masli Indas
19th Dympnha Sandra Kastum + Valinda Felix
21st Ronil Tujoh
22nd Billy Matiwong
25th Fiona Fv
26th Rizahandy Reza + Ashley
30th Hai Len Matiwong
October
1st Robby Boy Yusuf
2nd Muzailifah Ujai
3rd Caroline Benedict + Frankie Lim
5th Essie Charlene Robert Suimin
6th Florinah Babiah10th Shasha Farina
11st Halimatul Gustia
14th Albertina Luther + Bernard J. Kabi
17th Petsy BB
18th Nancy Bantil
20th Shaun Pravind
22nd Elrwin Sindin
26th Melody Lee + Jusnah Apau + Waty Gumi
27th Florence Matthew30th Jackson Jaimus
31st Jasli Alip
November
3rd Elviana Alexander
10th Ery Nadzir + Jay Kong
11st Melinda Kay
15th Elvin Petrus
17th Anthony Chai
22nd Ag Pyan
24th Decius Nanak27th Nor Fadilah Ain Omar
29th Sarinah Eina
30th Hansdanyson Benedict + Ernelly Robin
December
1st Hasnie Falina + Viviolyne + Ten Araman
3rd Roserianah Joseph + Malvin Kalvin
4th Lara Barbara Stanislaus
6th Adelia George
7th Filmah Sammy8th Gabriella Presley
9th Atlianus Atee13rd Diana Widi
15th Fedrius Fidio Jumi + Anita Digma + Prissila Bujet
16th Lorrenus Judah
21st Jc Jane James
23rd Mustinah Joseph
25th Timmie Liew + Juslia Apau + Gloria Christma29th Azzry Ariel Dusain
30th Deonesia Alezandro
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January
1st Fiona Fionz Chang + Luyoh + Sherlynie Rusain
3rd Mrs Mama Manic Ming
5th Mimie Kong Siaw Wah + Herman Sanny
7th Suziana Martinus + Caroline Apau
10th Ivy Josmin + Abah Larmin + Rolinus Paulous
11st Sherlin Lampakas + Alice Arminah Aik
13rd Kunismaina Ramli
14th Bilnis Jeprin + Sabrina
15th Walter Milter + Christina Lams
17th Jeanessa Vera Jusing
19th Dominick Menggin Andom
20th Renosa + Rowena Tulop
21st Salinah Kablen
24th Dino Dinz Albert
25th Rojie Songkia
26th Edwyn Edward
27th Ricky John
28th Martin Ahtin Yapp + Dunstan Lamansing
29th Jennifer Lee
31th Ross Aaron Poul + Mourice Louis
February
2nd Helson Benedict
3rd Ivy Lovia James + Jumatiah + Jumariah + Evans + Hilda + Thompson + Luis
4th Rafikah
5th Sheilla Liew + Raislee JoJo Joseph + Sisel Duramin
6th Josie James
7th Jennifer Jane Subing
8th Melinda Louis
9th Sherene Yee
10th Newmond Gimon Guansing + Gregory
11st Ann Gwenivere + Melton Martin
12nd Leonard James
13rd Czer Koh
14th Mas Hamimah
15th Farazilla Abbas
16th Eddly Mastan
17th Runine Ednie
18th Jacqueline Elsa Taraan
19th Remmy Emiey Ejai
20th Adirman Salim
21st Justina Matius + Timothy Sng
22nd Nickson Mathew
23rd Atliana Atun Atee
24th Nurfatimah Ibrahim
26th Rupina Guri
27th Norhayati Juwa
28th Imelda Albert
29th Awonventure Amaja
March
1st Lidis Singkung
3rd Jay Junior + Daniel Richard
4th Fahmi + Emiliana Ali
5th Natalie Ng + Siew Lin
6th Jasnikah Jeppy
8th Franklin Lim
10th Robert James + Salinah Kablen13rd Simon Donny
15th Lydrizza Wa-y Koh
16th Indo Sharifah Efy
17th Rindy Nabin + Wijinia Reyes
19th Rachel Lin
23rd Jessbent
24th Melbert Martin + Sheilymelly Rusain25th Fizafrian Obie
27th Beatrice Bernadette Boli
28th Edel Arninah Aik + Fresscilla Richard
April
1st Azlina Abdul Pusing
2nd Peter Haryson + Peter Anderson Nianti + Aunty Tina
5th Ruth Rainih Ationg
8th Aaron Ross Ationg + Jeremiah James Presley + Carolina Jeffrey
10th Dolly Manjuil13rd Melnah Martin
20th Jecky Ray
23rd Joyce Tulip James
25th Erwana Jeffred + Winston
26th Jonathan Tse
May
3rd Satria Kamaruddin
4th Alexander Jeffrey
8th Oliver Tse + Michelle Lo10th Rosnah Rose
11st Rommie Yusuf
13rd Yoktan Julbit + May Kunau
14th Edwinsor + Edwinson Edward
16th Claudya Quenzie Oiyoe
17th Mustieca Joseph + Myerie Rachel + Nuran Neng
18th Jennifer Robert Suimin
22nd Siti Nurul Hidayah Daud28th Mr Papa James Ming
29th Veronica Justin
30th Christy Benedict + Masmika Joseph
31st Rita Insik
June
3rd Blericia Bibiey Kamrin
4th Helwin Mobile
6th Azmi Kolis
10th Marthen Jiling Kuntong11st Norlina Nana
12nd Nani Amanda
15th Haroldson Aaron Benedict + Shilla Soh
18th Jimrus Ruslee
26th Albert Lintikan + Alexzender Lex J
29th Wadi Rinantai
30th Adrus Philip
July
1st Mimie Dusain
8th Debbie Koh9th Helen James Ming + Natanael Robin + Imelda Dingle
10th Adlina Lisa Ugak
11st Egnitius Edwifar Edward
13rd Ain Syazrinie Mohd Shah
15th Azuwel Yedija Nadzir + Hexson + Marline Ho
17th Jumat
18th Eisdha Sairin
20th Eldarincia Kamrin
21st Joy Nadzir
22nd Suzita Likin
25th James Lee Thien Siong + Julian Lee
28th Handry Welen
29th Angela Ujih
30th Tey Lee Yin
31st Belvander Jeffrey
August
1st Caroline Edwin
3rd Amber Henrietta Emie + Magdelina Tuyok + Enfee Liew
4th Gabriel Boy Walter
5th Doulos Aryond Saikong7th Dorina Dusain
8th Sanisah Kablen
9th Brenda Valerie Adrianus
11st Tsen Nyuk Fun(AhFun)
13rd Jacqueline Ugak + Nurifah Pingging
18th Brian Chin + DeyLa + Brenda Eicka
21st Angeline Kuan + Welen Handry
23rd Malne Johan + Livyria Evy J24th Dhartecularizea Robert
27th Presley James Ming + Malisa M.Nasir
28th Siti Wardah Shazriana Daud
29th Selwyn Awin Sho
31st Kenin Loong
September
1st Carol Sumail + Jason James + Morry Ganyon
2nd Jasmek Hanid
4th Melvis Martin
9th Wallcon Walter
11st Lee Seul
13rd Jacqueline Ugak
16th Celoran
18th Eustorayanne Rynie Micheal + Masli Indas
19th Dympnha Sandra Kastum + Valinda Felix
21st Ronil Tujoh
22nd Billy Matiwong
25th Fiona Fv
26th Rizahandy Reza + Ashley
30th Hai Len Matiwong
October
1st Robby Boy Yusuf
2nd Muzailifah Ujai
3rd Caroline Benedict + Frankie Lim
5th Essie Charlene Robert Suimin
6th Florinah Babiah10th Shasha Farina
11st Halimatul Gustia
14th Albertina Luther + Bernard J. Kabi
17th Petsy BB
18th Nancy Bantil
20th Shaun Pravind
22nd Elrwin Sindin
26th Melody Lee + Jusnah Apau + Waty Gumi
27th Florence Matthew30th Jackson Jaimus
31st Jasli Alip
November
3rd Elviana Alexander
10th Ery Nadzir + Jay Kong
11st Melinda Kay
15th Elvin Petrus
17th Anthony Chai
22nd Ag Pyan
24th Decius Nanak27th Nor Fadilah Ain Omar
29th Sarinah Eina
30th Hansdanyson Benedict + Ernelly Robin
December
1st Hasnie Falina + Viviolyne + Ten Araman
3rd Roserianah Joseph + Malvin Kalvin
4th Lara Barbara Stanislaus
6th Adelia George
7th Filmah Sammy8th Gabriella Presley
9th Atlianus Atee13rd Diana Widi
15th Fedrius Fidio Jumi + Anita Digma + Prissila Bujet
16th Lorrenus Judah
21st Jc Jane James
23rd Mustinah Joseph
25th Timmie Liew + Juslia Apau + Gloria Christma29th Azzry Ariel Dusain
30th Deonesia Alezandro
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Saturday, October 3, 2009
Super-Hero
Hahaha... I was talking to my friend JessBent, while this page appear on my Toshiba NB100 Laptop ( so temberang one) .. Thanks for him b'cuz gave me an idea to write something here..
SUPERHERO!!
Welcome uLtraman from never never land
Welcome to the tune fun party ..
Ultraman is not my hero .. never! Do u want to know about my hero?
And this is He .. He is Mr PAPA .. My beloved Daddy !
He just an ordinary person, human being, who has it's up and down moment ..
Sometimes, he fail to fulfill my desire but he never fail to love me ..
He accept for who I really am .. Eventhough I'm not a good gurl ..
Thanks my Superhero..
Yosh! God has given me the Asst Superhero.. She's amazing and good !
When my Papa in a bad situation, she never leave him alone ..
She is my Mrs MAMA ..
She loves me and always encouraged me to stand still in my own life, Thanks Mom ;)
She's garang and strict while my superhero more silent and still ..
But they're combined in one life, and they are my parents ! I lurve them so much,, Muax !
Parents for a lifetime ..
Papa Lurve
Mama Lurve
SUPERHERO!!
Welcome uLtraman from never never land
Welcome to the tune fun party ..
Ultraman is not my hero .. never! Do u want to know about my hero?
And this is He .. He is Mr PAPA .. My beloved Daddy !
He just an ordinary person, human being, who has it's up and down moment ..
Sometimes, he fail to fulfill my desire but he never fail to love me ..
He accept for who I really am .. Eventhough I'm not a good gurl ..
Thanks my Superhero..
Yosh! God has given me the Asst Superhero.. She's amazing and good !
When my Papa in a bad situation, she never leave him alone ..
She is my Mrs MAMA ..
She loves me and always encouraged me to stand still in my own life, Thanks Mom ;)
She's garang and strict while my superhero more silent and still ..
But they're combined in one life, and they are my parents ! I lurve them so much,, Muax !
Parents for a lifetime ..
Papa Lurve
Mama Lurve
Friday, October 2, 2009
Single Poor Smile
It's just a simple story, real story that happen in my life.
One day in my practical period, not a good day.. Really bad.. Patient merungut, sampel darah hilang, so upsitedown bcuz most of the staffs was going to attended others confrences, on leave and only a few MLT to handle the lab. So terrible!
That evening, I went back to home with a bad bad bad feeling! In the bus, nobody was smiling, they only had their banana face and no peace. The atmosphere was really bad.
Kriingggg! Owh someone pushed the button and desire to stop.. ok ok.. It was a selekeh man, work in some construction I tot. A bit dirty and so comot. I don't know what they call it..
Ok lepas tu, pakcik tadi bayar tambang dekat driver bus tu. I keep looking at him, bcuz tak ada pemandangan lain nak tengok. I saw his face, with the comot selekeh and whatever, he SMILED to the driver.
Oh my, so sudden, my pressure and my bad bad feeling disappeared. My feeling like, cool, tenang, and no more stress. Dan so sudden I tak rasa bad, seriously, I really feel peaceful ;) ..
Just a simple poor smile became my therapy.. Since that day, no matter how bad my day was, I tried hard to give a lil' simple smile to others so then I can cheer up their day ;)
Remember this one ~ Just A Smile On Your Face Make The World A Better Place To Stay !
One day in my practical period, not a good day.. Really bad.. Patient merungut, sampel darah hilang, so upsitedown bcuz most of the staffs was going to attended others confrences, on leave and only a few MLT to handle the lab. So terrible!
That evening, I went back to home with a bad bad bad feeling! In the bus, nobody was smiling, they only had their banana face and no peace. The atmosphere was really bad.
Kriingggg! Owh someone pushed the button and desire to stop.. ok ok.. It was a selekeh man, work in some construction I tot. A bit dirty and so comot. I don't know what they call it..
Ok lepas tu, pakcik tadi bayar tambang dekat driver bus tu. I keep looking at him, bcuz tak ada pemandangan lain nak tengok. I saw his face, with the comot selekeh and whatever, he SMILED to the driver.
Oh my, so sudden, my pressure and my bad bad feeling disappeared. My feeling like, cool, tenang, and no more stress. Dan so sudden I tak rasa bad, seriously, I really feel peaceful ;) ..
Just a simple poor smile became my therapy.. Since that day, no matter how bad my day was, I tried hard to give a lil' simple smile to others so then I can cheer up their day ;)
Remember this one ~ Just A Smile On Your Face Make The World A Better Place To Stay !
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
KS maliee ~~
I was in KS last week. Attended the Young Adult Champ. I think I had great time there, friends, foods, homestay, Mr Putut, dinner, sermons, and God's touch.. HE's awesome ;)
Sebelum bertolak ;)
The 1st day we're there, I felt, nervous or maybe excited .. hahah..It's been a long long time I don't attend any Malay Champ, Conferences or something like that. I attended the English one only. And yes, after these all years, I attended this conference. The theme of the conference is 'Ku Temukan DIA'. 'DIA' refers to GOD but at the same time the champ also gave the attender to 'cari' and 'temukan dia' (d dengan huruf kecil). I was staying in YY's house, one of my bestpals.
Owh, when the makan time, dinner, I saw Mr Putut. I tried to hide myself. Pura-pura tak kenal. Owh yah, I have my own reason why I act like that. The sermon that night more to explaining what is the purpose we were there.
The 2nd day..1st session was the session that I was waiting for, Berdua lebih baik (dan bertiga itu salah).. What a good sermons. But, yesh that sermon was not really into me .. The second session, REHAB Session .. OMG, I can't stop crying eventhough the sermon still have a long way to finish .. What the hell is going on? It's really touched me ! GOD, YOU're really there ! After the pray and the dignification session .. I'm so 'lemas' no energy at all .. But thanks GOD, I feel good ..
That evening we went to fishing .. What a good moments! Fun! I can't stop laugh .. U can see our fishing moments in my facebook ;) .. All my friends really, great !
Fishing time ..
The second nite ;) .. Hahah, DINNER ! I can't find my name in the tables so I asked Un Arun about it .. But because my friend offered me a seat, then I join them .. And out of the blue, Mr Putut was in that table!! haha. Me? yesh excited.. fun what .. ok ok, I didn't tell about him yet .. he is my good pals, came from LD, 22 years old, cute, Dusun, speaks Malay, loving, good singer, and good musician .. This sure can use in ur assigment .. ahaks. And honestly, I like him ;) .. Tapi setakat tu jak larh ..
The last day, I really feel great !! skip skip skip .. I don't feel like I want to right it down here .. So I write about that nite.. The last nite.. I was in dinner table with my friends from IAC while Mr Putut was in the opposite table of mine.. haha . But I don't really care about him because I was enjoying my food and my friends .. So havoc ! Thanks for the foods !! banyak sangat + weird food (I named it) until my stomach so senak .. Oh yah, my elderly sister also came with Mommy Daddy (Kak Ly's parents, our adopted family), Kak Ly and her BF.. I sempat jumpa Mr Putut for a bit talked .. for some reasons, yupss for our unfinished thing .. And thats end that nite .. I'm going to miss him ..
(Kak Ly,MOmmy,Kak Long N IVY DA'FUNKY)
We went back to Sandakan that night .. I'm so tired !
Ready to go home!!
msg ~ sorry byk kesalahan grammar .. sya sleepy dan tak berniat nak edit later ..
Sebelum bertolak ;)The 1st day we're there, I felt, nervous or maybe excited .. hahah..It's been a long long time I don't attend any Malay Champ, Conferences or something like that. I attended the English one only. And yes, after these all years, I attended this conference. The theme of the conference is 'Ku Temukan DIA'. 'DIA' refers to GOD but at the same time the champ also gave the attender to 'cari' and 'temukan dia' (d dengan huruf kecil). I was staying in YY's house, one of my bestpals.
Owh, when the makan time, dinner, I saw Mr Putut. I tried to hide myself. Pura-pura tak kenal. Owh yah, I have my own reason why I act like that. The sermon that night more to explaining what is the purpose we were there.
The 2nd day..1st session was the session that I was waiting for, Berdua lebih baik (dan bertiga itu salah).. What a good sermons. But, yesh that sermon was not really into me .. The second session, REHAB Session .. OMG, I can't stop crying eventhough the sermon still have a long way to finish .. What the hell is going on? It's really touched me ! GOD, YOU're really there ! After the pray and the dignification session .. I'm so 'lemas' no energy at all .. But thanks GOD, I feel good ..
That evening we went to fishing .. What a good moments! Fun! I can't stop laugh .. U can see our fishing moments in my facebook ;) .. All my friends really, great !
Fishing time ..The second nite ;) .. Hahah, DINNER ! I can't find my name in the tables so I asked Un Arun about it .. But because my friend offered me a seat, then I join them .. And out of the blue, Mr Putut was in that table!! haha. Me? yesh excited.. fun what .. ok ok, I didn't tell about him yet .. he is my good pals, came from LD, 22 years old, cute, Dusun, speaks Malay, loving, good singer, and good musician .. This sure can use in ur assigment .. ahaks. And honestly, I like him ;) .. Tapi setakat tu jak larh ..
The last day, I really feel great !! skip skip skip .. I don't feel like I want to right it down here .. So I write about that nite.. The last nite.. I was in dinner table with my friends from IAC while Mr Putut was in the opposite table of mine.. haha . But I don't really care about him because I was enjoying my food and my friends .. So havoc ! Thanks for the foods !! banyak sangat + weird food (I named it) until my stomach so senak .. Oh yah, my elderly sister also came with Mommy Daddy (Kak Ly's parents, our adopted family), Kak Ly and her BF.. I sempat jumpa Mr Putut for a bit talked .. for some reasons, yupss for our unfinished thing .. And thats end that nite .. I'm going to miss him ..
(Kak Ly,MOmmy,Kak Long N IVY DA'FUNKY)
We went back to Sandakan that night .. I'm so tired !
Ready to go home!!msg ~ sorry byk kesalahan grammar .. sya sleepy dan tak berniat nak edit later ..
Saturday, September 19, 2009
~Scandalous !!~
scandalous~~
No, this entry don't have any link to the title .. haha .. curious? good, I like this one ..
Me supposed to pack up my stuffs, because I'll be away for 3 days .. for some seminar in other place .. but I can't run from read my friends' blogs and now I stuck here, bagus untuk saya ;) ..
Hurm .. my parents and my lil' Nata will be leaving soon, they will move to another state .. I don't know what I really feel now .. sedih+sebak+rindu .. oh my, I really feel it ! .. dan I tak leh nak tipu, I'm crying while I'm trying to finish this entry .. Silly .. but I can not hide it .. I can't follow them like my high school moment, yes, I'm growing up now .. I have my own life and have my right .. so I need to move on in my single way .. and yes, without them ..
My Amano, I might annoying you .. turn down my promises ! but, deep inside me .. I just want you to 'naman barabwa' .. Look at me only .. Do not turn your head to the others side, pls ..
Huh .. My feeling is so upside down ..
No, this entry don't have any link to the title .. haha .. curious? good, I like this one ..
Me supposed to pack up my stuffs, because I'll be away for 3 days .. for some seminar in other place .. but I can't run from read my friends' blogs and now I stuck here, bagus untuk saya ;) ..
Hurm .. my parents and my lil' Nata will be leaving soon, they will move to another state .. I don't know what I really feel now .. sedih+sebak+rindu .. oh my, I really feel it ! .. dan I tak leh nak tipu, I'm crying while I'm trying to finish this entry .. Silly .. but I can not hide it .. I can't follow them like my high school moment, yes, I'm growing up now .. I have my own life and have my right .. so I need to move on in my single way .. and yes, without them ..
My Amano, I might annoying you .. turn down my promises ! but, deep inside me .. I just want you to 'naman barabwa' .. Look at me only .. Do not turn your head to the others side, pls ..
Huh .. My feeling is so upside down ..
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
4.50 a.m. Thought !
It's early in the morning while I'm writing something in this blog .. ya ya ya, I know, still early .. saya tengah ready nak ke sekolah .. chee, macam high school plak ;) .. No actually, I want msg my Yukiteru, want to be his 1st msg in this morning .. before he go to school .. yah, yukiteru saya masih sekolah .. and he work hard for it !! chewah ..
Erm, I can not sleep at all .. I watched the astro since yesterday, no channel, because kejap kejap I changed the channel then at last I watch the 'iklan' only .. sambil2 online, check mana yang patut .. I heard this song Kimi No Suki Na Uta by UVERworld many times .. I keep repeatin' it all along the dawn .. And I tak bosan pun ..
The lyric of the chorus ;) !! I love it .. My Yukiteru gave me this song in our first date, oops ! hahaha .. when I miss him, I sing this song .. lalalala .. Actually it's remind me to my first crush!! Boy bukan nama sebenar .. I've waiting him for many years .. wait wait and wait .. till someday he said it, said 'bout something that I badly want to hear !
You know what? waiting for a long time, for 10 years I count, (I just 8 when I fall in love with him, ya anda boleh ketawa !!) makes me, blur .. I'm so bad in my 10 years count, can not combine with his 10 years count of being good boy .. I will ruin it !! No no no, dont let me be .. I still miss him this very day .. I never say I LOVE YOU to him, but I said GOOD BYE .. freak ! .. I do not know why I did it, but yet I still regreting .. Him, happy with the girl that he had chosen .. more better than me .. I sure that .
No No ! I'm sleepy that's why I melalut tak tentu pasal .. ow, nak msg my Yukiteru jap .. tak sabar nak balik Sandakan .. Didie Sandra, if u read this, I'm sure u tengah senyum sumbing memikirkan ur girl yg gila bayang ney .. hahaha . Oh My other half? U also read this? OMG!! don't trust me .. I'm not in love .. Yukiteru is not my boyfriend .. He's my PATHFINDER ! ok, deal here .. haha ..
I want buy something for myself, baby-T? jeans? bag? let me think it first .. boring lar tak da kawan go to shopping mall .. Lisa at kampung, Jenny also, Didie also, Dila practical, Roey classes .. Anyone else? No one? huh.. I want go to swim .. wear bikini .. I want look hot in my swimming suit .. hehe .. But no one can accompany me .. If I in Sandakan, for sure I go alone !
Oh my, oh my !! I love this song, 'Give You Hell' by All American Reject .. tengah main di TV!! haha .. When you see my face hope it gives you hell .. Stupid song, but I still crazy over it .. I need to sleep now .. my eyes sure macam panda .. Me myself also swinging, cakap ntah pa pa da ni .. but my Yukiteru didn't reply my msg yet ..
Ok ok ok, let me quest ..?/ My Yukiteru lewat bgn then awake with kelam kabut ask her sister to iron his T .. then terkejar sana sini .. buat muka sebal .. a bit touch up in his face utk menarik perhatian gadis2 cute dekat school .. am I right? hahaha .. He will marah me if he read this post ..
But I can't stop my hand from type another words in this post .. I really want to sleep, for several times ..
Finally you reply, but a bit late?? not going to school? oh my dia sakit .. fevering .. Take a good rest ! I really want to sleep now !!!
This terrible thought pops out while I'm in my sleepy mood ... GOOD MORNING everyone ;)
msg: Oh My~so freak..this post I wrote last August, but just appear now..just want u guys notice it .. huhu
Erm, I can not sleep at all .. I watched the astro since yesterday, no channel, because kejap kejap I changed the channel then at last I watch the 'iklan' only .. sambil2 online, check mana yang patut .. I heard this song Kimi No Suki Na Uta by UVERworld many times .. I keep repeatin' it all along the dawn .. And I tak bosan pun ..
Eventhough I was with you all this time...
Without being able to say I LOVE YOU...
I said GOOD BYE...
I want to see you right away...
So I repeat the song that you like...
Humming it as I walk my way home...
Without being able to say I LOVE YOU...
I said GOOD BYE...
I want to see you right away...
So I repeat the song that you like...
Humming it as I walk my way home...
The lyric of the chorus ;) !! I love it .. My Yukiteru gave me this song in our first date, oops ! hahaha .. when I miss him, I sing this song .. lalalala .. Actually it's remind me to my first crush!! Boy bukan nama sebenar .. I've waiting him for many years .. wait wait and wait .. till someday he said it, said 'bout something that I badly want to hear !
You know what? waiting for a long time, for 10 years I count, (I just 8 when I fall in love with him, ya anda boleh ketawa !!) makes me, blur .. I'm so bad in my 10 years count, can not combine with his 10 years count of being good boy .. I will ruin it !! No no no, dont let me be .. I still miss him this very day .. I never say I LOVE YOU to him, but I said GOOD BYE .. freak ! .. I do not know why I did it, but yet I still regreting .. Him, happy with the girl that he had chosen .. more better than me .. I sure that .
No No ! I'm sleepy that's why I melalut tak tentu pasal .. ow, nak msg my Yukiteru jap .. tak sabar nak balik Sandakan .. Didie Sandra, if u read this, I'm sure u tengah senyum sumbing memikirkan ur girl yg gila bayang ney .. hahaha . Oh My other half? U also read this? OMG!! don't trust me .. I'm not in love .. Yukiteru is not my boyfriend .. He's my PATHFINDER ! ok, deal here .. haha ..
I want buy something for myself, baby-T? jeans? bag? let me think it first .. boring lar tak da kawan go to shopping mall .. Lisa at kampung, Jenny also, Didie also, Dila practical, Roey classes .. Anyone else? No one? huh.. I want go to swim .. wear bikini .. I want look hot in my swimming suit .. hehe .. But no one can accompany me .. If I in Sandakan, for sure I go alone !
Oh my, oh my !! I love this song, 'Give You Hell' by All American Reject .. tengah main di TV!! haha .. When you see my face hope it gives you hell .. Stupid song, but I still crazy over it .. I need to sleep now .. my eyes sure macam panda .. Me myself also swinging, cakap ntah pa pa da ni .. but my Yukiteru didn't reply my msg yet ..
Ok ok ok, let me quest ..?/ My Yukiteru lewat bgn then awake with kelam kabut ask her sister to iron his T .. then terkejar sana sini .. buat muka sebal .. a bit touch up in his face utk menarik perhatian gadis2 cute dekat school .. am I right? hahaha .. He will marah me if he read this post ..
But I can't stop my hand from type another words in this post .. I really want to sleep, for several times ..
Finally you reply, but a bit late?? not going to school? oh my dia sakit .. fevering .. Take a good rest ! I really want to sleep now !!!
This terrible thought pops out while I'm in my sleepy mood ... GOOD MORNING everyone ;)
msg: Oh My~so freak..this post I wrote last August, but just appear now..just want u guys notice it .. huhu
Monday, September 14, 2009
Fine Fina ;)
Fine Fina... I've been thinkin' 'bout my next post while I was reading Fina's blog .. (Fina, if you decide to kick me now, pls do that after u baca entri I ney) ...
Yes!! mcm yg awak fikir ... I'm your silent reader ... and for sure, your fan !!
Anyways, introduce her as Fina or Hasnie Falina ... But I call her Nana .. She's my friend .. Good friend I tot .. I knew her during my high school, form 3 .. Then we went to the same class, form 4, di mana hanya terdapat 5 orang gadis-gadis canteq and 11 boys yang mengjengkelkan !! hahaha ...
Fina is lovely ... lembut orang nya ... but inside, berapi ;) .. seriously, I like her attitude ... Other girls in our class also the lovely one :) .. Me the only girl that loud, crazy and suka gaduh dgn budak-budak lelaki kat kelas tu !! hahah .. But I like it ;) ..
Reading Fina's blog, http://sufilara.blogspot.com , makes me wow ! She's never change .. Still the one that, erm, linguistics, pure, true, honest, and (Fina, sorry for the words) a bit laser .. Yesh, she's NANA ! Her words, her thought, her idea and so on .. in silent also, encouraged me sometimes .. Thanks Fina ;) ..
Honestly, Me a bit hate to update my blog eventhough I have a lot of time yg kena bazir with other activities yg memenatkan ! Or maybe I have no story to share, hahaha. But yet, I love to read others blog .. careful, maybe your blog is one of my 'list-to-read' ..
But still I like Fina's blog, howcome you didn't write something 'bout me ;) .. No no no, I'm jokin' ;) .. My blog, yesh I know, no need to mention it, tekiu ! Boring ! Hanya beberapa entri saja yg _______ (a) boring (b) boring (c) boring .. pilih antara 1 .. hahaha .. But I will try hard to make it more unbored! haha.. Maaf, unbored teda dalam kamus .. If only I can change this blog to her blog, I WILL DO IT ! And make you guys unbored ;) ..
Me always speechless when I start write something on my blog, just like now .. huh ! .. Why I can't be like my high school moment yg penuh dgn kata-kata semasa membuat karangan Bahasa Melayu or Bahasa Malaysia? .. I bengong sendiri .. So again, my new post is my next bored post .. pls enjoy it, pls pls ..
I named this post 'FINE FINA' just to remind me, update more often my own blog ;) and to remember her ;p .. Oh yess, this is Fina yang saya umpat di atas ..
Yes!! mcm yg awak fikir ... I'm your silent reader ... and for sure, your fan !!
Anyways, introduce her as Fina or Hasnie Falina ... But I call her Nana .. She's my friend .. Good friend I tot .. I knew her during my high school, form 3 .. Then we went to the same class, form 4, di mana hanya terdapat 5 orang gadis-gadis canteq and 11 boys yang mengjengkelkan !! hahaha ...
Fina is lovely ... lembut orang nya ... but inside, berapi ;) .. seriously, I like her attitude ... Other girls in our class also the lovely one :) .. Me the only girl that loud, crazy and suka gaduh dgn budak-budak lelaki kat kelas tu !! hahah .. But I like it ;) ..
Reading Fina's blog, http://sufilara.blogspot.com , makes me wow ! She's never change .. Still the one that, erm, linguistics, pure, true, honest, and (Fina, sorry for the words) a bit laser .. Yesh, she's NANA ! Her words, her thought, her idea and so on .. in silent also, encouraged me sometimes .. Thanks Fina ;) ..
Honestly, Me a bit hate to update my blog eventhough I have a lot of time yg kena bazir with other activities yg memenatkan ! Or maybe I have no story to share, hahaha. But yet, I love to read others blog .. careful, maybe your blog is one of my 'list-to-read' ..
But still I like Fina's blog, howcome you didn't write something 'bout me ;) .. No no no, I'm jokin' ;) .. My blog, yesh I know, no need to mention it, tekiu ! Boring ! Hanya beberapa entri saja yg _______ (a) boring (b) boring (c) boring .. pilih antara 1 .. hahaha .. But I will try hard to make it more unbored! haha.. Maaf, unbored teda dalam kamus .. If only I can change this blog to her blog, I WILL DO IT ! And make you guys unbored ;) ..
Me always speechless when I start write something on my blog, just like now .. huh ! .. Why I can't be like my high school moment yg penuh dgn kata-kata semasa membuat karangan Bahasa Melayu or Bahasa Malaysia? .. I bengong sendiri .. So again, my new post is my next bored post .. pls enjoy it, pls pls ..
I named this post 'FINE FINA' just to remind me, update more often my own blog ;) and to remember her ;p .. Oh yess, this is Fina yang saya umpat di atas ..
P/s ~ Nana, I miss you ;)
Saturday, September 12, 2009
If Today was Your Last Day
Dedicated this song to my other half, my Amano, my MyLo, my readers ;) ..
Pls enjoy the song =)
Song by Nickelback, great singer I tot !
You can hear it thru this link > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9gDjcfCp5nU
I love this song currently .. It's crazy bebs ! It's reminds me to live without doubt .. without regret .. yeah .. I like a few sentences in this song .. "I Today was your last day, tomorrow is too late", Leave old picture in the past?", "would you forgive your enemies?", "could you say goodbye to yesterday" and "Swear up and down to God above that you'd finally fall in love?" .. There's many thing that I still need to do the days forward ... yesh, too many .. I still can't forgive my enemy (not so enemy, my friend actually but act likes an enemy to me), still frame up my old picture that hurt me in the past, still cry over everything that make me regret, and the worse is, I lied! I still love my Mr Cinderella even if he hates me, and swear that I never fall in love again...but, when I realize .. I finally found that I fall in love once again...& I will fight for it to the last...&&& if today was my last day, I will not regret for my tomorrow...&& ready to say goodbye to my yesterday...so are you??
Pls enjoy the song =)
Song by Nickelback, great singer I tot !
You can hear it thru this link > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9gDjcfCp5nU
My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?
Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?
If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?
Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?
If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?
I love this song currently .. It's crazy bebs ! It's reminds me to live without doubt .. without regret .. yeah .. I like a few sentences in this song .. "I Today was your last day, tomorrow is too late", Leave old picture in the past?", "would you forgive your enemies?", "could you say goodbye to yesterday" and "Swear up and down to God above that you'd finally fall in love?" .. There's many thing that I still need to do the days forward ... yesh, too many .. I still can't forgive my enemy (not so enemy, my friend actually but act likes an enemy to me), still frame up my old picture that hurt me in the past, still cry over everything that make me regret, and the worse is, I lied! I still love my Mr Cinderella even if he hates me, and swear that I never fall in love again...but, when I realize .. I finally found that I fall in love once again...& I will fight for it to the last...&&& if today was my last day, I will not regret for my tomorrow...&& ready to say goodbye to my yesterday...so are you??
Friday, August 21, 2009
Yes, I Think So ;)
The guy that I really lurve is the one that really irritating me...
But, My life wouLd suck without him...
But, My life wouLd suck without him...
Saturday, July 25, 2009
{{ Fearless }}
It's 2.33 in the morning, I just watched a movie, title "FearDotCom"...
It's a horror movie..And, I watched it alone...babe,this is the first time I watched a horror movie alone...so brave one...huhu..Actually,I'm not so watching it alone,my friend was online beside me..But she's not watching, she busy!
Summary...Four people die mysteriously in NYC and the only connection is the fact that all of them died within 48 hours of logging on to "feardotcom.com", a website that depicts voyeuristic torture murder. Detective Mike Reilly teams up with Terry Huston, a Department of Health researcher, to uncover the cause behind the unexplained deaths and to prevent future deaths from happening again after the website becomes a popular topic..Huh..
The best tag line to this movie is 'fear'...everybody have their fear or phobia or traumatic or somethings like that...Four people who died in this story were dying because of their fear...They just can release from this game if only they can got the 'body' and overcome their fear..
I also afraid of something. Afraid of being losing someones I love and I care of...And this is my big fear... Just a few hours before, my boyfriend told me about his cousin that extremely sick, kidney problem...He reminds me to someone that passed away 9 years ago...
He, who now rest in peace, was passing away without a chance for me to apologize...and it's make me regret this very day...Just if I have a chance to say my sorry, I'll do that without defer it...since that day, until now...I become someone that really afraid of losing someone. someone who badly afraid of losing someone who I love and I care....
This moment, I feel guilty for him..really hate this feeling...I need to overcome this fear..
I need to be fearless...fearless...fearless..
It's a horror movie..And, I watched it alone...babe,this is the first time I watched a horror movie alone...so brave one...huhu..Actually,I'm not so watching it alone,my friend was online beside me..But she's not watching, she busy!
Summary...Four people die mysteriously in NYC and the only connection is the fact that all of them died within 48 hours of logging on to "feardotcom.com", a website that depicts voyeuristic torture murder. Detective Mike Reilly teams up with Terry Huston, a Department of Health researcher, to uncover the cause behind the unexplained deaths and to prevent future deaths from happening again after the website becomes a popular topic..Huh..
The best tag line to this movie is 'fear'...everybody have their fear or phobia or traumatic or somethings like that...Four people who died in this story were dying because of their fear...They just can release from this game if only they can got the 'body' and overcome their fear..
I also afraid of something. Afraid of being losing someones I love and I care of...And this is my big fear... Just a few hours before, my boyfriend told me about his cousin that extremely sick, kidney problem...He reminds me to someone that passed away 9 years ago...
He, who now rest in peace, was passing away without a chance for me to apologize...and it's make me regret this very day...Just if I have a chance to say my sorry, I'll do that without defer it...since that day, until now...I become someone that really afraid of losing someone. someone who badly afraid of losing someone who I love and I care....
This moment, I feel guilty for him..really hate this feeling...I need to overcome this fear..
I need to be fearless...fearless...fearless..
Thursday, July 16, 2009
12 Freak Things 'bout Me =)
1. Crazy of lil' pony star high above on sky {superSTAR wanna be}
2. Love to eat ice cream, candy n cheese cake {b'cuz it's sweet n makes me more sweet}
3. Obsess of green in colour {Pencinta alam ;)}
4. Love to swim, can wear hot bikini {sexy lady..hahaha}
5. Crazy of horror movie but never watched it alone {takut lor}
6. Love to eat and eat and eat, but afraid of being FAT {ahaks}
7. Suka membebel tapi tak suka dibebel {huhuhu, am I?}
8. Love to dance...espeacialy the sexy dance one... {wanna dance with me DEAR?}
9. Love loudness...but can be very silent in loudness n crowded situation...
10. Manja but very garang {this is real}
11. Crazy of the sweet smell perfume...{My aromatherapy in stress time}
12. Love to write diary.. {where can I express my feeling and my secret}
2. Love to eat ice cream, candy n cheese cake {b'cuz it's sweet n makes me more sweet}
3. Obsess of green in colour {Pencinta alam ;)}
4. Love to swim, can wear hot bikini {sexy lady..hahaha}
5. Crazy of horror movie but never watched it alone {takut lor}
6. Love to eat and eat and eat, but afraid of being FAT {ahaks}
7. Suka membebel tapi tak suka dibebel {huhuhu, am I?}
8. Love to dance...espeacialy the sexy dance one... {wanna dance with me DEAR?}
9. Love loudness...but can be very silent in loudness n crowded situation...
10. Manja but very garang {this is real}
11. Crazy of the sweet smell perfume...{My aromatherapy in stress time}
12. Love to write diary.. {where can I express my feeling and my secret}
Friday, July 3, 2009
::WHAT A GIRL WANTS::
What a girl wants?...can u answer this freak quesion?
I'm not sure 'bout what the other girls want..
When I was 8 years old, I crushed with someone that never 'see' me..
Not even a single smile,damn!
But this girl still crushed more deeply and deeply...
Until one day..I'd moved to other place...
And the story end...
Then, the time was turning me up to 15 years old...
I was in loved again? Fun!
But I loved that moment...
Be in loved with him, taught me to be what I never wish for...
But, the 'damn' was coming back...
He ran away...No, I'm running away...No! Hurm..Whatever..
And I, totally in PAIN!
I don't want this part...
This is not exactly what a girl wants..
So baby, what a girl wants?
What a girl wants...
Is what a girl needs...
Am I right?...(sapa setuju angkat tangan)...
Once, I can't trust love anymore...
I am afraid of being love...
Really afraid!!
But..I really can't help, falling in love with him..
Feel the air that he feels...
How beautiful..
Watched the movie he likes...
Sang the songs he crazy about...
Huh!
Loving him is something that natural,
Can't control, can't stop it...
Me only asked for six years...
So that,
I can stay in his arm...
Kiss his hand...
and,
Lay down my head to his shoulder...
Let me not defer...
Cuz, what a girl wants is exactly what a girl needs...
Whatever that keeps me in his arms ;)
::IVRiEY::
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
I'm not sick, just a lil' bit UNWELL!!
I don’t know how to start it… but let me start it with this simple phrase “I’m not sick, just a little bit unwell”.
Last two weeks I was diagnosed by some virus that attacks my heart. I won’t name it here. When I know about it, I felt so frustrated. I can’t see my future. I can’t be a doctor anymore just because this virus. I was crying for a couple weeks, feeling so upset, lost hope, upside down or maybe down upside. Huh?! I’m so blur, don’t know what path I should go now. And the most pain now is, I’M SICK!!
A day after that, I went to meet a doctor. We had a bit talk, and he said that there is no medicine for my diagnosed. What? That’s crazy!! I can’t face it. I can’t stand it. How can you go on while you know the viruses are attacking your heart? Without medicine? Man, you’re human. I became more frustrated about it. God, I’m not ready yet. I’m so young for it.
Today, I went to meet the doctor again…the “pakar” one. There are many things that she told about my pain. But one from that is “don’t be frustrated, maybe you can’t be a doctor but there’s something for you later”. She also told me that, there was a doctor that suicide just because this diagnosed. Huh?! Oh God, I won’t be that poor… help me thru all these days forward.
I know the viruses are attacking my heart day by day. I know I can’t stand it one day later. And I know that I have not longer years for the rest of my life. Yet, I’m still here for this very day. Holding my pain. Feeling my sick. Carrying the viruses. But it will never break me down. NEVER! I will carry on. God, don't let me alone. Ganbaraso_up!
famiLies, thanks for the support, pray and LOVE... Thanks for being there for me. LURVE you guys...
Baby…I’M NOT SICK, JUST A LIL’ BIT UNWELL.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Admiring My Other haLf ;)
My oyher half?..my twin?...
..nah..I dOn't have any twin or another Ivy...But this my other haLf is my Sister..
Introdruce her as TULIP ;) (cuz me-Ivy n her-Tulip..n itu nama bunga - Love iT)..
erm...if you know her well, I'm the opposite personality of her...
She is a home girl, silent, smart, canteq...me?outgoing girl, loud, crazy, naughty..ahaks..
Still remember our childhood time, she was be my playhood friend and also be my enemy.. gaduh + tumbuk + masak2 + kejar2 = fun..hihi...
Back to our primary school..my sis was a 'pengawas'...n no one dares to bully me...she's smarts,everyone knew it..n me always 'jadi mangsa kena suruh' study hard b'cuz of her...
When we in high school, again she proved that TULIP SMARTs ;)... n me,don't know what to say..so naugthy n crazy...zaman keruntuhan nilai moral...but she was always be my protecter ;)
b'cuz of her,me owez safe from 'kna denda'...
yEt she still my best jie jie, my best shopping partner, my fantastic dancing mate, my enemy, my best bestfriend, my ever playhood friend...n that's make us complete each other ;)....That's show reason why she is my other half ;)
Yosh,I am really admiring her... She's good,smart,beauty,brave n natural...
I really hope can be like her...but yet I'm so happy can be her lil' sister ;)..really lurve her...
MY OTHER HALF
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