I don’t know how to start it… but let me start it with this simple phrase “I’m not sick, just a little bit unwell”.
Last two weeks I was diagnosed by some virus that attacks my heart. I won’t name it here. When I know about it, I felt so frustrated. I can’t see my future. I can’t be a doctor anymore just because this virus. I was crying for a couple weeks, feeling so upset, lost hope, upside down or maybe down upside. Huh?! I’m so blur, don’t know what path I should go now. And the most pain now is, I’M SICK!!
A day after that, I went to meet a doctor. We had a bit talk, and he said that there is no medicine for my diagnosed. What? That’s crazy!! I can’t face it. I can’t stand it. How can you go on while you know the viruses are attacking your heart? Without medicine? Man, you’re human. I became more frustrated about it. God, I’m not ready yet. I’m so young for it.
Today, I went to meet the doctor again…the “pakar” one. There are many things that she told about my pain. But one from that is “don’t be frustrated, maybe you can’t be a doctor but there’s something for you later”. She also told me that, there was a doctor that suicide just because this diagnosed. Huh?! Oh God, I won’t be that poor… help me thru all these days forward.
I know the viruses are attacking my heart day by day. I know I can’t stand it one day later. And I know that I have not longer years for the rest of my life. Yet, I’m still here for this very day. Holding my pain. Feeling my sick. Carrying the viruses. But it will never break me down. NEVER! I will carry on. God, don't let me alone. Ganbaraso_up!
famiLies, thanks for the support, pray and LOVE... Thanks for being there for me. LURVE you guys...
Baby…I’M NOT SICK, JUST A LIL’ BIT UNWELL.
2 comments:
b...i still can't get it. What decease u're suffering now. it scaries me u knw...wud u mind telling me the whole story?
kak..i'm not ready yet tell anyone about my sick...but i'll tell u later..if we can meet each other later..
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