KS maliee ~~

I was in KS last week. Attended the Young Adult Champ. I think I had great time there, friends, foods, homestay, Mr Putut, dinner, sermons, and God's touch.. HE's awesome ;)
Sebelum bertolak ;)
The 1st day we're there, I felt, nervous or maybe excited .. hahah..It's been a long long time I don't attend any Malay Champ, Conferences or something like that. I attended the English one only. And yes, after these all years, I attended this conference. The theme of the conference is 'Ku Temukan DIA'. 'DIA' refers to GOD but at the same time the champ also gave the attender to 'cari' and 'temukan dia' (d dengan huruf kecil). I was staying in YY's house, one of my bestpals.
Owh, when the makan time, dinner, I saw Mr Putut. I tried to hide myself. Pura-pura tak kenal. Owh yah, I have my own reason why I act like that. The sermon that night more to explaining what is the purpose we were there.

The 2nd day..1st session was the session that I was waiting for, Berdua lebih baik (dan bertiga itu salah).. What a good sermons. But, yesh that sermon was not really into me .. The second session, REHAB Session .. OMG, I can't stop crying eventhough the sermon still have a long way to finish .. What the hell is going on? It's really touched me ! GOD, YOU're really there ! After the pray and the dignification session .. I'm so 'lemas' no energy at all .. But thanks GOD, I feel good ..

That evening we went to fishing .. What a good moments! Fun! I can't stop laugh .. U can see our fishing moments in my facebook ;) .. All my friends really, great !
Fishing time ..

The second nite ;) .. Hahah, DINNER ! I can't find my name in the tables so I asked Un Arun about it .. But because my friend offered me a seat, then I join them .. And out of the blue, Mr Putut was in that table!! haha. Me? yesh excited.. fun what .. ok ok, I didn't tell about him yet .. he is my good pals, came from LD, 22 years old, cute, Dusun, speaks Malay, loving, good singer, and good musician .. This sure can use in ur assigment .. ahaks. And honestly, I like him ;) .. Tapi setakat tu jak larh ..


The last day, I really feel great !! skip skip skip .. I don't feel like I want to right it down here .. So I write about that nite.. The last nite.. I was in dinner table with my friends from IAC while Mr Putut was in the opposite table of mine.. haha . But I don't really care about him because I was enjoying my food and my friends .. So havoc ! Thanks for the foods !! banyak sangat + weird food (I named it) until my stomach so senak .. Oh yah, my elderly sister also came with Mommy Daddy (Kak Ly's parents, our adopted family), Kak Ly and her BF.. I sempat jumpa Mr Putut for a bit talked .. for some reasons, yupss for our unfinished thing .. And thats end that nite .. I'm going to miss him ..

(Kak Ly,MOmmy,Kak Long N IVY DA'FUNKY)

We went back to Sandakan that night .. I'm so tired !
Ready to go home!!







msg ~ sorry byk kesalahan grammar .. sya sleepy dan tak berniat nak edit later ..

~Scandalous !!~

scandalous~~
No, this entry don't have any link to the title .. haha .. curious? good, I like this one ..
Me supposed to pack up my stuffs, because I'll be away for 3 days .. for some seminar in other place .. but I can't run from read my friends' blogs and now I stuck here, bagus untuk saya ;) ..

Hurm .. my parents and my lil' Nata will be leaving soon, they will move to another state .. I don't know what I really feel now .. sedih+sebak+rindu .. oh my, I really feel it ! .. dan I tak leh nak tipu, I'm crying while I'm trying to finish this entry .. Silly .. but I can not hide it .. I can't follow them like my high school moment, yes, I'm growing up now .. I have my own life and have my right .. so I need to move on in my single way .. and yes, without them ..

My Amano, I might annoying you .. turn down my promises ! but, deep inside me .. I just want you to 'naman barabwa' .. Look at me only .. Do not turn your head to the others side, pls ..

Huh .. My feeling is so upside down ..

4.50 a.m. Thought !

It's early in the morning while I'm writing something in this blog .. ya ya ya, I know, still early .. saya tengah ready nak ke sekolah .. chee, macam high school plak ;) .. No actually, I want msg my Yukiteru, want to be his 1st msg in this morning .. before he go to school .. yah, yukiteru saya masih sekolah .. and he work hard for it !! chewah ..

Erm, I can not sleep at all .. I watched the astro since yesterday, no channel, because kejap kejap I changed the channel then at last I watch the 'iklan' only .. sambil2 online, check mana yang patut .. I heard this song Kimi No Suki Na Uta by UVERworld many times .. I keep repeatin' it all along the dawn .. And I tak bosan pun ..

Eventhough I was with you all this time...
Without being able to say I LOVE YOU...
I said GOOD BYE...
I want to see you right away...
So I repeat the song that you like...
Humming it as I walk my way home...

The lyric of the chorus ;) !! I love it .. My Yukiteru gave me this song in our first date, oops ! hahaha .. when I miss him, I sing this song .. lalalala .. Actually it's remind me to my first crush!! Boy bukan nama sebenar .. I've waiting him for many years .. wait wait and wait .. till someday he said it, said 'bout something that I badly want to hear !

You know what? waiting for a long time, for 10 years I count, (I just 8 when I fall in love with him, ya anda boleh ketawa !!) makes me, blur .. I'm so bad in my 10 years count, can not combine with his 10 years count of being good boy .. I will ruin it !! No no no, dont let me be .. I still miss him this very day .. I never say I LOVE YOU to him, but I said GOOD BYE .. freak ! .. I do not know why I did it, but yet I still regreting .. Him, happy with the girl that he had chosen .. more better than me .. I sure that .

No No ! I'm sleepy that's why I melalut tak tentu pasal .. ow, nak msg my Yukiteru jap .. tak sabar nak balik Sandakan .. Didie Sandra, if u read this, I'm sure u tengah senyum sumbing memikirkan ur girl yg gila bayang ney .. hahaha . Oh My other half? U also read this? OMG!! don't trust me .. I'm not in love .. Yukiteru is not my boyfriend .. He's my PATHFINDER ! ok, deal here .. haha ..

I want buy something for myself, baby-T? jeans? bag? let me think it first .. boring lar tak da kawan go to shopping mall .. Lisa at kampung, Jenny also, Didie also, Dila practical, Roey classes .. Anyone else? No one? huh.. I want go to swim .. wear bikini .. I want look hot in my swimming suit .. hehe .. But no one can accompany me .. If I in Sandakan, for sure I go alone !

Oh my, oh my !! I love this song, 'Give You Hell' by All American Reject .. tengah main di TV!! haha .. When you see my face hope it gives you hell .. Stupid song, but I still crazy over it .. I need to sleep now .. my eyes sure macam panda .. Me myself also swinging, cakap ntah pa pa da ni .. but my Yukiteru didn't reply my msg yet ..

Ok ok ok, let me quest ..?/ My Yukiteru lewat bgn then awake with kelam kabut ask her sister to iron his T .. then terkejar sana sini .. buat muka sebal .. a bit touch up in his face utk menarik perhatian gadis2 cute dekat school .. am I right? hahaha .. He will marah me if he read this post ..
But I can't stop my hand from type another words in this post .. I really want to sleep, for several times ..

Finally you reply, but a bit late?? not going to school? oh my dia sakit .. fevering .. Take a good rest ! I really want to sleep now !!!

This terrible thought pops out while I'm in my sleepy mood ... GOOD MORNING everyone ;)



msg: Oh My~so freak..this post I wrote last August, but just appear now..just want u guys notice it .. huhu

Fine Fina ;)

Fine Fina... I've been thinkin' 'bout my next post while I was reading Fina's blog .. (Fina, if you decide to kick me now, pls do that after u baca entri I ney) ...
Yes!! mcm yg awak fikir ... I'm your silent reader ... and for sure, your fan !!

Anyways, introduce her as Fina or Hasnie Falina ... But I call her Nana .. She's my friend .. Good friend I tot .. I knew her during my high school, form 3 .. Then we went to the same class, form 4, di mana hanya terdapat 5 orang gadis-gadis canteq and 11 boys yang mengjengkelkan !! hahaha ...

Fina is lovely ... lembut orang nya ... but inside, berapi ;) .. seriously, I like her attitude ... Other girls in our class also the lovely one :) .. Me the only girl that loud, crazy and suka gaduh dgn budak-budak lelaki kat kelas tu !! hahah .. But I like it ;) ..

Reading Fina's blog, http://sufilara.blogspot.com , makes me wow ! She's never change .. Still the one that, erm, linguistics, pure, true, honest, and (Fina, sorry for the words) a bit laser .. Yesh, she's NANA ! Her words, her thought, her idea and so on .. in silent also, encouraged me sometimes .. Thanks Fina ;) ..

Honestly, Me a bit hate to update my blog eventhough I have a lot of time yg kena bazir with other activities yg memenatkan ! Or maybe I have no story to share, hahaha. But yet, I love to read others blog .. careful, maybe your blog is one of my 'list-to-read' ..

But still I like Fina's blog, howcome you didn't write something 'bout me ;) .. No no no, I'm jokin' ;) .. My blog, yesh I know, no need to mention it, tekiu ! Boring ! Hanya beberapa entri saja yg _______ (a) boring (b) boring (c) boring .. pilih antara 1 .. hahaha .. But I will try hard to make it more unbored! haha.. Maaf, unbored teda dalam kamus .. If only I can change this blog to her blog, I WILL DO IT ! And make you guys unbored ;) ..

Me always speechless when I start write something on my blog, just like now .. huh ! .. Why I can't be like my high school moment yg penuh dgn kata-kata semasa membuat karangan Bahasa Melayu or Bahasa Malaysia? .. I bengong sendiri .. So again, my new post is my next bored post .. pls enjoy it, pls pls ..

I named this post 'FINE FINA' just to remind me, update more often my own blog ;) and to remember her ;p .. Oh yess, this is Fina yang saya umpat di atas ..

P/s ~ Nana, I miss you ;)

If Today was Your Last Day

Dedicated this song to my other half, my Amano, my MyLo, my readers ;) ..
Pls enjoy the song =)
Song by Nickelback, great singer I tot !
You can hear it thru this link > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9gDjcfCp5nU

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

I love this song currently .. It's crazy bebs ! It's reminds me to live without doubt .. without regret .. yeah .. I like a few sentences in this song .. "I Today was your last day, tomorrow is too late", Leave old picture in the past?", "would you forgive your enemies?", "could you say goodbye to yesterday" and "Swear up and down to God above that you'd finally fall in love?" .. There's many thing that I still need to do the days forward ... yesh, too many .. I still can't forgive my enemy (not so enemy, my friend actually but act likes an enemy to me), still frame up my old picture that hurt me in the past, still cry over everything that make me regret, and the worse is, I lied! I still love my Mr Cinderella even if he hates me, and swear that I never fall in love again...but, when I realize .. I finally found that I fall in love once again...& I will fight for it to the last...&&& if today was my last day, I will not regret for my tomorrow...&& ready to say goodbye to my yesterday...so are you??