#Forgiveness

What if today is my last day?

And what if I will never ever have a chance to ask for forgiveness or forgive someone?

I was like wondering about this matter for months.

And I cried, every-time I think about it.

Ya, jangan lupa saya manusia biasa yang punya perasaan marah, kecewa dan putus asa.

But when I think about it, and everyone that left me without words, R.I.P dear souls, I was, like, God what happen if I die without a word. What if I don't release my forgiveness, when someone really need it? I tried. I try to forgive everyone. I badly want to do so. But I have no strength. I don't even can't say a word.

But today, I gather all the strength to start an action. I started write a msg to someone, told them that I forgive them. I know, it's sound silly. But believe me, I really need it!. I hurt many times, I tried to suicide years before. Now, I have to MOVE ON. But first, I have to forgive everyone, I mean EVERYONE. For the one who never stay, for the one who never love, for the one who never forgive, for the one who never care, for the one who never support, for the one who left, for the one who took what's mine, for the one who come and go, for the one who did it for fun, for the one who take me for granted, for the one who never listen, for the one who want to keep me but never love me, for the one who never call, for the one that lie to me, FOR THE ONE THAT CHOOSE TO IGNORE ME.

I also ask for forgiveness, afterall I just a girl, human being, who did a lot of sin. Forgive me if I forget to care, forgive me if I forget to care, forgive me if I say a harsh word to you, forgive me if I didn't listen to you, forgive me if I beg for a stupid reason, forgive me if I choose someone or something over you, forgive me if I not loyal to you, forgive me if I forget to say thank you, forgive me if I forget your name, forgive me if I took you for granted, forgive me if I didn't LOVE you enough, and forgive me if I LEFT YOU behind.

Believe me, I didn't mean to hurt you.

Dear readers, forgive me if I wrote a stupid post.

msg ~ I try hard to MOVE ON.

Ivy. Oh. IVy

Third day of February. Every years.
 That's my birthdayyy! I Love that date so muchhhhhh. I don't think people will hate their own birthdayy date? ... Maybe some people will hate the way their or the condition they were born, perhaps, but they still love the date so much! ... SO MUCH!
 Thanks GOD for todayyyy, toooooooo much surprises. Thanks to my beloved familiessss.. yeah! Love you all.
 And to all my readers, please enjoy the dayyy with me. ily. Will update you guys with my photo of the day or, maybe upload all photos in a day.


anywayys, love plus hug from sweetie me.. muax!!!




msg ~ mau hadiah dr mR Shadow. ..

Mish Everything

I can't describe my real feeling now...
It's feel like, something goes sooooo wrong...
It's almost 2 hrs I've been crying...

I miss home, where my families are...
I miss the way we fight, hug, tease, LOVE....
Feel so awayyyyyy now... Far awaaayyyyy... 

I miss you guyssss.....


msg ~ so down.........

This way ...

:)
Don't ask about my feeling now :p ..
Don't ask about my life now :p ..
It's feel so weird, and funny ..

Thanks God, the ceremony went well, not so perfect but yet, I'm glad, SO GLAD, because mama and papa were here. Abg and his family. Soul sisters. DD BFF, 5 Friends, Geng 86, Darl Fun, Yukiteru, Dorin, came just to support me. THANKS. Tuhan seja dapat balas bak kata DD's dad. 

I was standing there, wearing my Wedding Dress, watching someone, I knew that you're hurt, so do I. I'm sorry. And thanks for the supported. Should be your...................

Can I wish, HAPPY WEDDING DAY Ivy.You're still my number one.

I already start to walk thru THIS WAY, am I ready?




msg - will owez heart u. KURNIA.

I mish my other half ;)

Have a time to view her posted ..
I mish her, just have a short talk just now ..
But badly want to meet her now ..
Love her too ..

;) pls CLICK cuz this one is so cute ..
She wrote it, for my birthday .. pass two years .. hehe ..
hoping for the new one soon ... yesh ;p

and this one too ...
really mish JOYCE ..


THANKS SISTA ..

msg ~ mish you JJ :)

Super-Hero

Hahaha... I was talking to my friend JessBent, while this page appear on my Toshiba NB100 Laptop ( so temberang one) .. Thanks for him b'cuz gave me an idea to write something here..

SUPERHERO!!

Welcome uLtraman from never never land
Welcome to the tune fun party ..

Ultraman is not my hero .. never! Do u want to know about my hero?
And this is He .. He is Mr PAPA .. My beloved Daddy !
He just an ordinary person, human being, who has it's up and down moment ..
Sometimes, he fail to fulfill my desire but he never fail to love me ..
He accept for who I really am .. Eventhough I'm not a good gurl ..
Thanks my Superhero..

Yosh! God has given me the Asst Superhero.. She's amazing and good !
When my Papa in a bad situation, she never leave him alone ..
She is my Mrs MAMA ..
She loves me and always encouraged me to stand still in my own life, Thanks Mom ;)

She's garang and strict while my superhero more silent and still ..
But they're combined in one life, and they are my parents ! I lurve them so much,, Muax !

Parents for a lifetime ..

Papa Lurve
Mama Lurve

~Scandalous !!~

scandalous~~
No, this entry don't have any link to the title .. haha .. curious? good, I like this one ..
Me supposed to pack up my stuffs, because I'll be away for 3 days .. for some seminar in other place .. but I can't run from read my friends' blogs and now I stuck here, bagus untuk saya ;) ..

Hurm .. my parents and my lil' Nata will be leaving soon, they will move to another state .. I don't know what I really feel now .. sedih+sebak+rindu .. oh my, I really feel it ! .. dan I tak leh nak tipu, I'm crying while I'm trying to finish this entry .. Silly .. but I can not hide it .. I can't follow them like my high school moment, yes, I'm growing up now .. I have my own life and have my right .. so I need to move on in my single way .. and yes, without them ..

My Amano, I might annoying you .. turn down my promises ! but, deep inside me .. I just want you to 'naman barabwa' .. Look at me only .. Do not turn your head to the others side, pls ..

Huh .. My feeling is so upside down ..

Admiring My Other haLf ;)

My oyher half?..my twin?...

..nah..I dOn't have any twin or another Ivy...But this my other haLf is my Sister..

Introdruce her as TULIP ;) (cuz me-Ivy n her-Tulip..n itu nama bunga - Love iT)..

erm...if you know her well, I'm the opposite personality of her...

She is a home girl, silent, smart, canteq...me?outgoing girl, loud, crazy, naughty..ahaks..

Still remember our childhood time, she was be my playhood friend and also be my enemy.. gaduh + tumbuk + masak2 + kejar2 = fun..hihi...

Back to our primary school..my sis was a 'pengawas'...n no one dares to bully me...she's smarts,everyone knew it..n me always 'jadi mangsa kena suruh' study hard b'cuz of her...

When we in high school, again she proved that TULIP SMARTs ;)... n me,don't know what to say..so naugthy n crazy...zaman keruntuhan nilai moral...but she was always be my protecter ;)

b'cuz of her,me owez safe from 'kna denda'...

yEt she still my best jie jie, my best shopping partner, my fantastic dancing mate, my enemy, my best bestfriend, my ever playhood friend...n that's make us complete each other ;)....That's show reason why she is my other half ;)

Yosh,I am really admiring her... She's good,smart,beauty,brave n natural...

I really hope can be like her...but yet I'm so happy can be her lil' sister ;)..really lurve her...

MY OTHER HALF