#Forgiveness

What if today is my last day?

And what if I will never ever have a chance to ask for forgiveness or forgive someone?

I was like wondering about this matter for months.

And I cried, every-time I think about it.

Ya, jangan lupa saya manusia biasa yang punya perasaan marah, kecewa dan putus asa.

But when I think about it, and everyone that left me without words, R.I.P dear souls, I was, like, God what happen if I die without a word. What if I don't release my forgiveness, when someone really need it? I tried. I try to forgive everyone. I badly want to do so. But I have no strength. I don't even can't say a word.

But today, I gather all the strength to start an action. I started write a msg to someone, told them that I forgive them. I know, it's sound silly. But believe me, I really need it!. I hurt many times, I tried to suicide years before. Now, I have to MOVE ON. But first, I have to forgive everyone, I mean EVERYONE. For the one who never stay, for the one who never love, for the one who never forgive, for the one who never care, for the one who never support, for the one who left, for the one who took what's mine, for the one who come and go, for the one who did it for fun, for the one who take me for granted, for the one who never listen, for the one who want to keep me but never love me, for the one who never call, for the one that lie to me, FOR THE ONE THAT CHOOSE TO IGNORE ME.

I also ask for forgiveness, afterall I just a girl, human being, who did a lot of sin. Forgive me if I forget to care, forgive me if I forget to care, forgive me if I say a harsh word to you, forgive me if I didn't listen to you, forgive me if I beg for a stupid reason, forgive me if I choose someone or something over you, forgive me if I not loyal to you, forgive me if I forget to say thank you, forgive me if I forget your name, forgive me if I took you for granted, forgive me if I didn't LOVE you enough, and forgive me if I LEFT YOU behind.

Believe me, I didn't mean to hurt you.

Dear readers, forgive me if I wrote a stupid post.

msg ~ I try hard to MOVE ON.