Ivy. Oh. IVy

Third day of February. Every years.
 That's my birthdayyy! I Love that date so muchhhhhh. I don't think people will hate their own birthdayy date? ... Maybe some people will hate the way their or the condition they were born, perhaps, but they still love the date so much! ... SO MUCH!
 Thanks GOD for todayyyy, toooooooo much surprises. Thanks to my beloved familiessss.. yeah! Love you all.
 And to all my readers, please enjoy the dayyy with me. ily. Will update you guys with my photo of the day or, maybe upload all photos in a day.


anywayys, love plus hug from sweetie me.. muax!!!




msg ~ mau hadiah dr mR Shadow. ..

D.I.Y

Do It Yourself.
What? Sa tidak layak ka jadi seorang D.I.Y. Well, haha, I'm enjoying my work now. A lot of idea comes out, but still don't have a really good time to do it. But will do it soon or later.

I'm also thinking about a blog about my very own D.I.Y. Soon, soon, or later maybe. EHEHEE.. Thanks for my sisterssssss, yang sangat supportive. Will upload a photo about my D.I.Y later.

Looking forward for another simple simply idea for my own D.I.Y. Any suggestion?. :)




msg ~ so sudden become a creative girl, YAY.. hahahaha

Feel like vampire ..

I just received 2 packs of blood .. Group A rh (+)ve .. For the second time .. The first time I received packs of blood was 7 years ago .. Anemic, main cause is bleeding .. 3 days 2 nights, feel like "hospital, smells death" .. And I hate it ..

I don't like when the blood and the medicine were coming into my body .. It's pain .. It's remind me how the vampire really needs blood, I'm sure they are sick too - wth .. Just blood .. I don't know how it feel when hemoglobin was 7.1 .. The only word that I can describe is, It's Terrible! I feel death, sure I'm alive but it's really really different ..

I'm still not so ok .. but can survive .. Still bleeding actually .. Hope everything will be alright later ..

Sorry mama, make you so worried .. Sorry family .. And thanks for the caring ..
Thanks Lavender who always stay by my side at this very moment .. ilyimy ..
Thanks GOD for a live .. I'm here again by your mercy ..





msg ~ for sure, I'm not vampire ..

12 Freak Things 'bout Me =)

1. Crazy of lil' pony star high above on sky {superSTAR wanna be}


2. Love to eat ice cream, candy n cheese cake {b'cuz it's sweet n makes me more sweet}


3. Obsess of green in colour {Pencinta alam ;)}


4. Love to swim, can wear hot bikini {sexy lady..hahaha}


5. Crazy of horror movie but never watched it alone {takut lor}


6. Love to eat and eat and eat, but afraid of being FAT {ahaks}


7. Suka membebel tapi tak suka dibebel {huhuhu, am I?}


8. Love to dance...espeacialy the sexy dance one... {wanna dance with me DEAR?}


9. Love loudness...but can be very silent in loudness n crowded situation...


10. Manja but very garang {this is real}


11. Crazy of the sweet smell perfume...{My aromatherapy in stress time}


12. Love to write diary.. {where can I express my feeling and my secret}

I'm not sick, just a lil' bit UNWELL!!

I don’t know how to start it… but let me start it with this simple phrase “I’m not sick, just a little bit unwell”.

Last two weeks I was diagnosed by some virus that attacks my heart. I won’t name it here. When I know about it, I felt so frustrated. I can’t see my future. I can’t be a doctor anymore just because this virus. I was crying for a couple weeks, feeling so upset, lost hope, upside down or maybe down upside. Huh?! I’m so blur, don’t know what path I should go now. And the most pain now is, I’M SICK!!

A day after that, I went to meet a doctor. We had a bit talk, and he said that there is no medicine for my diagnosed. What? That’s crazy!! I can’t face it. I can’t stand it. How can you go on while you know the viruses are attacking your heart? Without medicine? Man, you’re human. I became more frustrated about it. God, I’m not ready yet. I’m so young for it.

Today, I went to meet the doctor again…the “pakar” one. There are many things that she told about my pain. But one from that is “don’t be frustrated, maybe you can’t be a doctor but there’s something for you later”. She also told me that, there was a doctor that suicide just because this diagnosed. Huh?! Oh God, I won’t be that poor… help me thru all these days forward.

I know the viruses are attacking my heart day by day. I know I can’t stand it one day later. And I know that I have not longer years for the rest of my life. Yet, I’m still here for this very day. Holding my pain. Feeling my sick. Carrying the viruses. But it will never break me down. NEVER! I will carry on. God, don't let me alone. Ganbaraso_up!

famiLies, thanks for the support, pray and LOVE... Thanks for being there for me. LURVE you guys...

Baby…I’M NOT SICK, JUST A LIL’ BIT UNWELL.