Happy New Season, Ivy

It's March already Ivy!!

It's time to move on. Banyak hal yang jadi beberapa bulan ni, aku move on, dia move on, mereka move on, si dia move on, jiran sebelah move on, kucing aku move on. Well, semua move on. 

But, bila fikir balik, Am I really move on? Bila dengar lagu Nickelback, If Today Was Your Last Day!.

Pejam mata, esok tidak mungkin akan bangun lagi. Am I forgiving now?

I want to mention someone name here, Tressie from LD. I said a very bad thing to her many years before. I don't even want to apologize, cause I thought 'this is her fault'. Dan sebab ego aku tinggi menggunung, I let the anger stay inside, until last week. Aku kumpul semua kekuatan manusia aku, damn!, I failed. So I asked God for the strength, and I sent a msg to her, told her that I'm sorry. For me, it's a big step. I cried, loudly. I won't live with anger in my heart. The hatred! The painful! The unwanted feeling!

I start to make a new step for a new path. God have mercy on me!

So, I will come back soon. I promise.

24 Years and Counting

Wonder If I Gave An Oreo
Would You Sing With Me?
We could share some sweet melodies
And sing in harmony
Let’s forget our area codes
The way we speak
Or how we wear our clothes
It doesn’t matter to me
Just like a song
Music knows no boundaries
No colouring books or family trees
So won’t you sing along

Wonder If I Gave An Oreo
Would You Sing With Me
No broken promises
Countless ways that never end or fun
So take one

Pink or green
Doesn’t matter what your scene is
Sing along Oh…

Like a smile
So much wonder in between
So sing along

Wonder if I gave an Oreo
would you sing with me?

We could share
Or write our stories
Filled with future dreams

Wonder if I gave an Oreo
Would you sing with me



Happy Birthday Mr Anime😘

Msg ~~ Wonder if you ever read my post😐

#Forgiveness

What if today is my last day?

And what if I will never ever have a chance to ask for forgiveness or forgive someone?

I was like wondering about this matter for months.

And I cried, every-time I think about it.

Ya, jangan lupa saya manusia biasa yang punya perasaan marah, kecewa dan putus asa.

But when I think about it, and everyone that left me without words, R.I.P dear souls, I was, like, God what happen if I die without a word. What if I don't release my forgiveness, when someone really need it? I tried. I try to forgive everyone. I badly want to do so. But I have no strength. I don't even can't say a word.

But today, I gather all the strength to start an action. I started write a msg to someone, told them that I forgive them. I know, it's sound silly. But believe me, I really need it!. I hurt many times, I tried to suicide years before. Now, I have to MOVE ON. But first, I have to forgive everyone, I mean EVERYONE. For the one who never stay, for the one who never love, for the one who never forgive, for the one who never care, for the one who never support, for the one who left, for the one who took what's mine, for the one who come and go, for the one who did it for fun, for the one who take me for granted, for the one who never listen, for the one who want to keep me but never love me, for the one who never call, for the one that lie to me, FOR THE ONE THAT CHOOSE TO IGNORE ME.

I also ask for forgiveness, afterall I just a girl, human being, who did a lot of sin. Forgive me if I forget to care, forgive me if I forget to care, forgive me if I say a harsh word to you, forgive me if I didn't listen to you, forgive me if I beg for a stupid reason, forgive me if I choose someone or something over you, forgive me if I not loyal to you, forgive me if I forget to say thank you, forgive me if I forget your name, forgive me if I took you for granted, forgive me if I didn't LOVE you enough, and forgive me if I LEFT YOU behind.

Believe me, I didn't mean to hurt you.

Dear readers, forgive me if I wrote a stupid post.

msg ~ I try hard to MOVE ON.

C A T U R D A Y Y

I'm not in a good mood. Don't ask. 

But It's good to be home, with kitties! Caturdayyy! 

Today, Mimi and Bodeng became my babies. Kena manja dan kena cium ketat-ketat.  I love cat so much, now yesh, about 3 years ody. And will continue to love them! 

I love dog also but maybe 1 day. 

I'm watching NCIS, do you know how much I love this series? I'm in love with the characters, so much I can tell. 

And I think, my Bodeng also loves it. Ahaks.

I'm bored, a bit. Just watched TV all day, read comics. No msg😭. Because he still at Kampung, and I miss him so much. 

And pls do msg me soon. 

I'm starving. Yes, starving. I haven't taken my food. And not really want to eat rice. I just ate biscuits and ramen. Haha. So me. 

So because today is Caturdayy, so I wish everyone that love cat have a good Caturdayy. 

Cause when the Sabbath day comes to the end, we have to work hard again! 

Anyway, H A V E A N I C E A N D S A F E D A Y!

Love is in the air!

Msg ~ I'm in love, but nobody cares... 

Because sometimes, 'A' stand for Aldous.

Yay. Teda kaitan. Tapi since I got necklace dengan buah rantai 'A', dan selalu orang refer kepada Mr Anime. Ya, memang betul lah tu. Mr. Anime tu siapa, sila cari anime dengan tajuk Mirai Nikki. XOXO.

Dan bila someone dalam hidup kau ada nama yang unik, dan bertahun-tahun kau pronounce it wrong, haha. And finally, yeah, after yearsssssss, you got it right. *Clap* *Clap*

Dan hari ni, saya dengan mood yang cantik, tarikh 08/09/2016, jam 3.33PM, ingin mengumumkan, saya penat. Dan lapar. Syukur makcik bibik sudah masak bubur, dan saya makan sekali dengan durian merah. TAPI, disebabkan saya HIGH with Caffeine! I vomited everything. Sayang sekali. *sambil dengar cerita makcik bibik, terasa seperti crita sinetron*  

I slept for 30 minutes, saya rasa. But I really enjoy the mood, terasa dari Darjah Satu Aku Suka Kamu! Disebabkan masih terasa mood Cinta Millennium, rasa nya 16 tahun sudah berlalu. Ok fine. Tapi kalau kau masih in the mood, who cares. 

Now, saya sepatut submit maklumat company, tapi sebab abam MPOB lambat reply msg, rasa macam malas mau update, selain dari blog ini. HAHA

I learnt something new today actually. Kenal someone lebih dari 15 tahun, masih banyakkkkk story dia kita tidak tahu. Dan masih jauh untuk menghakimi. Well, I grow up.

Rasa macam saya cuma membebel jak dalam post ni. Walaupun tiada kaitan dengan tajuk, well pls enjoy it. Mau tulis panjang-panjang, tapi yang pendek ni pun belum tentu kena baca. 

Kepada Mr. Anime, bravo for your first flight! 

Msg ~ rasa high melampau-lampau!

        ~ rasa kena abadikan tarikh ini, sekali sekala buat tarikh baru. haha

        ~ rasa blog dengan laptop terasa kurang dengan emoji!