There is...

There is a time that I hate you so much!
Put you in the bottle and leave it on the not-so-nice beach.
End up your light. So no more words from you.

There is a time that I really want to punch your face!
'till it bleeding, and keep bleeding, and bleeding
so you'll never have to be here in this very moment

There is a time when I really want to shout!
How stupid you are, How jerk you really are.
So you'll turn you head to another path, and go away.

There is a time when I badly want to say!
Go to HELL human!. No! You should go now.
So I can hear no more, I can see no more, you!. 

There is a time when I want to pack my stuffs up.
And run away. Run from yourself.
Run from the reality. To be with myself.

YES, I MEAN IT!

But there's always a time that I just keep silent. 
No words, No songs. I just say no sentences. 
I keep everything inside. I keep everything silent.
Remain.
I won't complain. Even for a words. NO.
and I will never complain.
Cause I afraid You'll be walking away from me.
And leave me out of breath.

Cause I have decided to be with you.
And I will never regret it.


msg~ always be my Amano!.

Happy NEW Year!

Guys. It's 2015. Thursday. Morning.
Yes. I'm home, and I don't want doing anything.
It's my off day, and don't ever mess with it. HAHA
I'm in a good mood. Yesh. Good and Lazy.
Yeah, Finally after yearssssssssss. I'm having my good 1st day of the year.
So Happy NEW year everyone!. Have a blast.
And Happy belated birthdayy Yukiteru. 3 days late.
Cause just having a free time now. Sorry.

Year of Revival!
Yesh. Will focus to HIM, my Adonai.

Thanks God for the new year.
Be with me along this year. I badly need YOU, JC!


msg ~ Stick with me my buddies! LURVE yaa

#MH17

I am so sorryyy to hear! Ohmaiii..
"What happen?" ... This is the first thing I've been thinking while I heard about the plane.
I am so sad.
A few minutes after I heard the news,
My friends and I bend on our knees and prey.
It's not a good thing. I dare to tell you!
I was, like, shouting and crying in my pray.
God, forgive us.
It's really hurt. I keep asking, why. Why. Why.
and still I have no answer. Still.

That night, I sent a msg to my dad, told him about what I feel.
After 30 minutes later, he reply my msg.
Wrote: Be strong, God has His own planned for everything that happen.

Thanks dad, you're always have a nice word to speak! Heart you.

But well, still feel sorry about it.

R.I.P beautiful souls.

I've been calling Your name in my pray. And if You are listen to my pray, please answer it.
I beg You, my Alpha and Omega.



Msg ~~ RIP mom Christinah. 
         ~~ happen the next 2 days after the MH17

Happy Wedding's Day EILY

14. June. 2014
Should I start it with, The Vow!.
One of my favourite event-to-attend.
It was a simple simply day for other.
But for them, It might means the whole world.
Eily. Abet. The Mr Right and the Mrs Always Right.
They are my close from my high school.
So it's suppose to be a quick reunion.
Ok, on their wedding' s day


I was driving alone from Sandakan to Beluran just to attend the wedding mass.
With the speed, 140km/h.
A bit late. Yet still worthy.
Even not everyone from the Gang 86 were there but enough for the ladies, Lin, Rynie, Wa-y, Kate and yes the newly bride, Abet.


Their wedding's theme was lime green and blue, just like mine. 😊😊😊😊😊
Simple yet perfect.


I was able to meet long lost friends, 15 years in my count. Even there is tooooooo many social network and messenger, the feeling is still sooo different. Sooo deep. Sooo lost. Soooo "feeling"..


Just a simple talked with the newly couple.
With Abet and Eily.
Should spell the name Ally but since he used to write his name Eily (it was stand for - Everyday I Love You) at school before... Then I prefer Eily.


Ok. It's also an awkward moment,  with the wierd eyes contact, haha. And a wedding wish. Uhm. Now I know how's it feel. Well say...


Anywayysss. Kisah lama tu saya dah lupa dah.. Haha.


Happy wedding's day Mr Eily.



Msg ~ i miss my high school!

The BLAIRE

Hello.
Blaire.
Siapa Blaire?
A.K.A Ms Bodeng C Kitty Purry.
My lovely cat.
Kuat makan.
Nakal.
Gemuk.
Manja melampau.
Garang.
Takut hantu, OK ini tipu.
Bising.
Kuat main.
Super cute.
etc etc etc

My BLAIRE.
Kadang rasa geram melampau bila Blaire lari sana sini, gigit kaki, gigit tangan, gigit muka, cakar sofa, mengiyau tengah malam.
Tapi bila berjauhan, boleh nangis teringat Blaire, sudah makan ka belum, tidur dalam rumah atau luar rumah (since I used to let my cat sleep with me in the bedroom), sudah mandi ka belum, boleh ka orang tahan dengan perangai nya yang menyakitkan hati. uhmmmm...

I love my cat. Biar tidak se"PARSI" dan se"GARFIELD" kucing lain, tapi I still love my cat. Still remember the first time I met Blaire, I won't step on into the car until I get the cat. I invited her into my life, loving and caring. Now Blaire becomes one of my precious thing in my life.

So, for those whom never meet Blaire personally. Let me introduce you, the BLAIRE :-

 Malu-malu 

ok, nakal

I love the ♥ symbol on her nose!!!

msg ~~ Teringat bila Blaire terjun daring tingkat 2 ... :(