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Will update my bLog later ;) ...



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msg -hahah - express updated !

Happy ♥-Day ..

Happy V-Day bebeh ...
Me having a good Valentine's day at Kelantan .. Yeah, in Kelantan .. A good place actually, nor war ! haha .. I'm having my holiday in my parents' work place ..

And my LAVENDER .. Happy V-Day .. Did I ever tell you guys, that's I love V so much .. That's why I like when people calls me " V " ;) .. Ok Lavender .. pls enjoy your V-day without me .. yay macam jak orang penting, hahaha .. But for sure, I miss you so much !!

There's nothing I can do today .. I'm watching tv, listening to the radio, playing with Nata, SMSes, 3G .. But yet I still enjoy it ..

2009 to 2010 ~~~

Happy NeW YEAR bebeh !!
Happy 2010 .. Good bye 2009 ..

Too much things happen in 2009 ...
Nak kena list kat sini ~ Done my study, did well my practical, syabas my thesis, forget n forgive my old memories(bad memories i think), new boyfriend(haha, u should be jealous), learn many things, sick, blood transfusion, christmas without family, banyak lagi lar ...

This 2010 year, tak ada azam baru .. Every year pun tak pena ada since few years ago .. Cuma nak tambah koleksi hp jak, ahaks .. Tahun neh nak hg LG lg .. ok what?! haha ..
Just hoping can get well soon .. not so soon lar .. but still soon .. I have to retreat myself .. I work hard last year .. And i have to be more slower this year .. Stay focus .. And be original ..

So good luck Ivy .. And everyone too .. have a blessed year ahead ..





msg ~ so happy can celebrated my new year with him ;) .. N mama, Happy Birthday ..

Feel like vampire ..

I just received 2 packs of blood .. Group A rh (+)ve .. For the second time .. The first time I received packs of blood was 7 years ago .. Anemic, main cause is bleeding .. 3 days 2 nights, feel like "hospital, smells death" .. And I hate it ..

I don't like when the blood and the medicine were coming into my body .. It's pain .. It's remind me how the vampire really needs blood, I'm sure they are sick too - wth .. Just blood .. I don't know how it feel when hemoglobin was 7.1 .. The only word that I can describe is, It's Terrible! I feel death, sure I'm alive but it's really really different ..

I'm still not so ok .. but can survive .. Still bleeding actually .. Hope everything will be alright later ..

Sorry mama, make you so worried .. Sorry family .. And thanks for the caring ..
Thanks Lavender who always stay by my side at this very moment .. ilyimy ..
Thanks GOD for a live .. I'm here again by your mercy ..





msg ~ for sure, I'm not vampire ..

I waLked iN the RAIN !

I was crying when I walked in the rain last night .. Feel frustrated and down .. And I don't know what to do .. And got fever today .. I love to walk in the rain when I feel down and uncool .. Not only that, I love to take shower while feel upset .. Go to the swimming pool when feel bored .. And go to the sea when I feel blue .. I love water so much .. cuz, when I in the water, nobody knows I'm crying ..

Listen to the Kelly Clarkson's song - Already Gone .. 'When we take this road, someone have to go' .. I know that you'll never let me go but honestly, I need to go .. She's fully yours .. I'm nothing ..
I love you enough to let you go .. The only sacrifice that I can do for you ..

Yes, when I talked to you thru hp last night, I was crying .. Pretending I got flu, but yet, you heard the song .. Yes, I'm NOT OK! I don't want to lost you .. Badly won't it .. But we're know it .. I'm the right person have to go ..

What is the good path for me now? Can someone show me?
God, what my reason? What my purpose?





msg ~ if u read this, I just want you to know .. I miss you so much ..


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