SOUL REAPER

I’m waiting the doctor to come and check me while I’m trying to log in into my blog. But out of blue, I enter the wrong email and it directed me to my other blog, the secret one. It about dreams also but that blog’s name is “My Broken Dream”. It’s my stories about my past. But still I can’t forget it. It’s about false love, untruth hope and broken dream. I have to admit, I still beg for his love, wth. I know that’s wrong, but I try to be honest, at least.

Maybe soon, or LATER, I will write something about “him”, yesh, HIM. He wrote about me in his blog with title “My Lil’ Secret”. But later when I reply the post, that will be My Biggest Secret at all. The one that never reveal before. The one that keep as my secret before, now but dunno for the future. But as long I can keep it, then I will try hard to keep it. Sometime I really want to tell the world about my feeling but it’s will ruin everything kan. So, silence is the best way to keep things under control. Kalaulah saya dewa, I just have to click 1 button and the one that I adore and love will come and stay with me, FOREVER.

I’m married now :). No need to remind me, I know my condition, TQ. But everytime I feel helpless, this guy came into my thought. As he promise, he will be my “shadow” forever. Tapi manusia biasa kan, boleh ka tuh keep his promise?. Just a few days I felt a lil’ bit down. He’s not support me at all. His “level” was going up and won’t come down. I miss the day we used to talk everyday. I miss the moment we had fun and tease each other. 

Ok, the doctor comes. Wait. Hang on.

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Kehilangan idea. Speechless. Tiba-tiba. Mungkin sebab abang doctor yang cakap cek seja tapi siap bagi ceramah free, TQ abang doctor. 

Oya, I keep his picture with his so called GF. Still thinking to upload it in every social network I have to REMIND me about his status. I re-read his email. Then I cancel it again. Email dia buat saya rasa, “uhm, he’s really into me?”. OK, he promise’ to be my BFF, then tunaikan lah kan. Kapan lagi.

Oooooo I really want to disappear, so no one will miss me. I watched the Bleach last few days, and one of my favourite episodes is the moment Orihime Inoue said these sweet words to Ichigo Kurosaki.

                ~ I wish I could live life five times over...Then I'd be born in five different places, and I'd stuff myself with different food from around the world five times...I'd live five different lives with five different occupations...and then, for those five times...I'd fall in LOVE with the same person...~ 

That’s really sweet. Fight for the RIGHT one. 5 times. I will love you forever or at least in every 5 life that you gave me. Even if we NEVER MEANT TO BELONG.  Will HEART you always. 520 1314.

Msg ~ AvRiEy fLozRy

Mish Everything

I can't describe my real feeling now...
It's feel like, something goes sooooo wrong...
It's almost 2 hrs I've been crying...

I miss home, where my families are...
I miss the way we fight, hug, tease, LOVE....
Feel so awayyyyyy now... Far awaaayyyyy... 

I miss you guyssss.....


msg ~ so down.........

New Post

I'm staring at my screen while I'm trying to post something here. 
No idea actually. I just feel, uhm ok. FINE.
I'm listening to many songs currently, but this song really attractive me, it's keep playing in my head... Until I can memorize line by line. I also trying to play it with my keyboard, and sing. OK I'm not a musician, so the sound will never get good ok. Don't ask.
Thanks for someone that gave me the song, you will never know how deep it means to me. Every line, every single word. It's really deep.
I feel a lil' bit ok, I think. But yet, I'm struggling, until I reach my limit :)

Anywayys, you guys want to hear the song?
BAH, kijap sa bagi link.

msg ~ life's like this ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ mishue

Blow Me A Kiss

It's 1.23 o'clock in the Morning. A few minutes to 2AM. I have to give him all my reasons, why and why. Yet, I still can't finish it, I'm so tired to think about it. A lot of reasons, and the highest reason of it, is I LOVE YOU. Trust me :). You can put your trust on me in the crazy messy and untrusted world :p ...

I knew I can't turn back the time to age 21st, but I'm still the same IVY, the one that you're adore, the one that touch your deep cold heart. No one can't change it. This is my dream, and I'm living it. And you're the only one of the special ingredient in my secret recipe.

Love, trust, hope and pray. Keep it together. And wait for the result. I heart you, and don't turn your heart from me, I beg you, DEAR :)





Msg ~ blow me a kiss

This way ...

:)
Don't ask about my feeling now :p ..
Don't ask about my life now :p ..
It's feel so weird, and funny ..

Thanks God, the ceremony went well, not so perfect but yet, I'm glad, SO GLAD, because mama and papa were here. Abg and his family. Soul sisters. DD BFF, 5 Friends, Geng 86, Darl Fun, Yukiteru, Dorin, came just to support me. THANKS. Tuhan seja dapat balas bak kata DD's dad. 

I was standing there, wearing my Wedding Dress, watching someone, I knew that you're hurt, so do I. I'm sorry. And thanks for the supported. Should be your...................

Can I wish, HAPPY WEDDING DAY Ivy.You're still my number one.

I already start to walk thru THIS WAY, am I ready?




msg - will owez heart u. KURNIA.