SOUL REAPER

I’m waiting the doctor to come and check me while I’m trying to log in into my blog. But out of blue, I enter the wrong email and it directed me to my other blog, the secret one. It about dreams also but that blog’s name is “My Broken Dream”. It’s my stories about my past. But still I can’t forget it. It’s about false love, untruth hope and broken dream. I have to admit, I still beg for his love, wth. I know that’s wrong, but I try to be honest, at least.

Maybe soon, or LATER, I will write something about “him”, yesh, HIM. He wrote about me in his blog with title “My Lil’ Secret”. But later when I reply the post, that will be My Biggest Secret at all. The one that never reveal before. The one that keep as my secret before, now but dunno for the future. But as long I can keep it, then I will try hard to keep it. Sometime I really want to tell the world about my feeling but it’s will ruin everything kan. So, silence is the best way to keep things under control. Kalaulah saya dewa, I just have to click 1 button and the one that I adore and love will come and stay with me, FOREVER.

I’m married now :). No need to remind me, I know my condition, TQ. But everytime I feel helpless, this guy came into my thought. As he promise, he will be my “shadow” forever. Tapi manusia biasa kan, boleh ka tuh keep his promise?. Just a few days I felt a lil’ bit down. He’s not support me at all. His “level” was going up and won’t come down. I miss the day we used to talk everyday. I miss the moment we had fun and tease each other. 

Ok, the doctor comes. Wait. Hang on.

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Kehilangan idea. Speechless. Tiba-tiba. Mungkin sebab abang doctor yang cakap cek seja tapi siap bagi ceramah free, TQ abang doctor. 

Oya, I keep his picture with his so called GF. Still thinking to upload it in every social network I have to REMIND me about his status. I re-read his email. Then I cancel it again. Email dia buat saya rasa, “uhm, he’s really into me?”. OK, he promise’ to be my BFF, then tunaikan lah kan. Kapan lagi.

Oooooo I really want to disappear, so no one will miss me. I watched the Bleach last few days, and one of my favourite episodes is the moment Orihime Inoue said these sweet words to Ichigo Kurosaki.

                ~ I wish I could live life five times over...Then I'd be born in five different places, and I'd stuff myself with different food from around the world five times...I'd live five different lives with five different occupations...and then, for those five times...I'd fall in LOVE with the same person...~ 

That’s really sweet. Fight for the RIGHT one. 5 times. I will love you forever or at least in every 5 life that you gave me. Even if we NEVER MEANT TO BELONG.  Will HEART you always. 520 1314.

Msg ~ AvRiEy fLozRy