1st tear in August

I'm trying to SMILE now .. SEE my picture .. I really want to show that I am moved on ..
That I can live without him .. But something bother in my heart .. I can't describe it .. Or deny it .. But why? .. I let you go, so pls, just go .. Don't ever try to come back .. I don't need you ..


This morning, I cried again .. And again .. For many times .. It's just August, and will back to December soon .. I wait .. Still can't face it .. I miss you, again ..



msg ~ happy birthday Laven, should write about him at his birthday .. sorry dearry ..

Leaving On The Jet Plane ~~

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

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.. Someone played a guitar and sang this song to me few years before .. And it still lingering in my head .. When he went to work far away from me, he dedicated this song to me as a promise .. And I believed it .. Poor Ivy =( .. He never meant it at all .. He just married, less than a month .. Honestly, I miss him right away, feel like don't want let him go .. I tot i already forget him 2 years ago but, now, dunno why I still can't forget him .. Aduh, be strong Ivy, be STRONG ..
.. I kept playing this song .. And I hate to know that I mish him badly ..

.. But why now?? ..

.. Why, when you have to leave, you don't leave me .. I wish that you would just leave .. far away ..




msg ~ i mish you, but i LOVE my boyfiey now .. Laven, ilysm <3 <3 <3 ..

.. HAK ..

.. HAK ..

.. Yang tersurat tapi tersirat ..
.. Yang dirampas tapi tak dipulangkan ..
.. Yang dicari tapi tak terjumpakan ..
.. Yang dikejar tapi tak tercapai ..
.. Yang dijaga tapi terhilang ..
.. Yang disimpan tapi keciciran ..
.. Yang disayang tapi ditinggalkan ..

.... Yang yang yang eya , eya lah ..
............ Yang tidak , tidak lah ..
.. Jangan ada duanya lagi ...


.. Ker'na itu adalah HAK yang sepatutnya menjadi HAK aku ..





msg ~ aku?? hahaha .. should use 'saya' .. =) ..

.. noidea ..

.. uhm, I have no idea when I start typing on my pc .. Want to write about Mr Laven, Hello Kitty, ViVi Magazine, XPERIA X8, Mac IPad plus Angry Bird, Nail Art, Novel, Loewe, LV, Haiku ,, huh .. Which one I should start first? ..

.. But I don't want write that now, soon or later, yah .. But not now ...

.. I've been reading my old friend's blog, and she's in the mourning I think .. Broke up with her lovely BF, who's gonna marry with other girl .. I don't even know that guy .. But she so so in love with him .. I know this girl for 10 years already .. She's smart, a good manager, beauty, and a great lover .. but in time of this, I feel the sorrow too .. I cried, feel sorry to her ,, cause .. 5 years ago, I feel the same way .. And I hate the feeling .. I really HATE the feeling .. Yesh, I can let the guy go, forgive him, but the scar still there .. God, forgive me pls ..

.. To my dearest friend, Nana .. Be strong inside outside .. God knows the best for us ... And don't worry, you are not alone ! .. Stand still .. ily ... cherioo ...




msg ~ it's not easy standing in my shoes .. so I'm clear that, it's not easy standing in your shoes ..

.. table messy up ~~ ...

I'm too busy on this week .. Sandakan-KK-Sandakan ..

Just be in office on Thursday evening .. YESH, I got a thousand work waiting for me in office .. well yeah, I got my new name card, I love it, eventhough I don't really like the design, sorry designer~~~ ;p

And my table is in terrible mess, hehehe ...

So I clean it up, and TADAAAA ,,

HAHAHA, I feel good ...

Well, there's not much I can share here, just because, I'm out of idea .. but I'm thinking about write something about my DEARY Laven <3 soon .. I PROMISE .. Since I never publish HIM here, so I will write it ...

msg ~ I mish my LAVEN ...